Bi Yuan finally emerged from the bathroom, casually pulled on a pair of pants, and tried to cling to Xu Yang. However, Xu Yang didn’t even give him a chance to speak before walking into the bathroom to take a shower. Watching the faint outline of his body through the frosted glass, Bi Yuan felt a bit frustrated. Earlier in the bathroom, he had planned to let loose and say whatever came to mind, even organizing his words in advance, but now he didn’t know how to start.
After turning off the light, Xu Yang lay down in bed, and Bi Yuan immediately wrapped himself around him from behind, still clinging to him with his arms and legs, like a piece of chewing gum: “Yang Yang, are you angry? Do you really want to argue with me?”
In the darkness, Xu Yang’s expression was invisible, but he remained silent. Bi Yuan couldn’t gauge his mood and felt at a loss. He immediately acted like a misbehaving elementary school student, reaching for his phone from the bedside table, opening the encrypted folder, and holding it up for Xu Yang to see.
“Yangyang, I only have it saved on my phone,” the phone emitted a faint glow, just enough to see Xu Yang’s expression. He was staring at Bi Yuan with an expression of disbelief. Just as he turned his head to speak, Bi Yuan interrupted him: “I haven’t shown it to anyone else, I swear! If I show it to anyone else, I’ll lose my manhood!”
“Pfft! What kind of oath is that?” This guy spoke without thinking. Xu Yang turned around from his arms wrapped around him and faced him, then covered his mouth and said, “Can you just say things like that?” Seeing Bi Yuan laughing shamelessly, Xu Yang continued, “Why did you save the video on your phone? Phones are the most dangerous!”
“I only saved it on my phone, nothing else!” “ As soon as he finished speaking, Bi Yuan suddenly thought of something, got up, and looked at Xu Yang with a puzzled expression: ”How did you know I still had the video?”
“I accidentally saw it on the computer today…” Xu Yang reluctantly told Bi Yuan that he had looked through the original folder on his computer, “I packed all your previous files into one folder on this computer, and I accidentally came across it today.”
Upon hearing this, Bi Yuan finally understood: “So there were videos in there too? I didn’t even remember.” As he spoke, he turned on the bedside lamp, got out of bed, and rushed to the study to delete the video. He shouted across the room to Xu Yang: “Where are the files? I can’t find them!”
At this point, Xu Yang felt a bit complicated. He hesitantly got out of bed and followed him to the study, but he never dared to look at the computer screen. He told Bi Yuan where the file was stored and sat on the small sofa beside him, watching Bi Yuan fiddle with the computer while muttering to himself, “I copied the DV memory card to the computer earlier, but then I forgot about it.”
After fiddling with it for a while, when the external speakers connected to the computer played the sound effect of the file being shredded, Bi Yuan said, “Yang Yang, the sound effects on this computer you set up are really good…” There seemed to be a hint of regret in his words, then he muttered to himself at a volume only he could hear while sitting in front of the computer, “I should have secretly played it to listen to it. Yang Yang’s voice must be very pleasant.”
“What?” Xu Yang was sitting far away but could faintly hear some of it, though not clearly. Bi Yuan didn’t respond, afraid that Xu Yang might overhear his ugly thoughts. He hurriedly retrieved the DV camera used to film Xu Yang from the study cabinet, as if to take credit, and said, “There are no videos left in this machine either. Take a look.”
But Xu Yang dared not look. Seeing the camera made him uneasy; he couldn’t describe the feeling, as if the tension from the past had returned, making him sit stiffly on the sofa and pretend to be relaxed. “You always say I’m talkative, but look at you tonight—you’ve been talking all night after having a few drinks.”
Xu Yang didn’t want to watch him operate the DV camera. Knowing he was in the wrong, he threw the item aside and hugged Xu Yang, wanting to go back to the room. “Yangyang, are you really angry? I had no choice…”
“You’re almost forty years old, yet you speak like a child?” The blanket, which had already been warmed up, had grown cold after all the commotion. Xu Yang turned off the light, lay back on the bed, and murmured with his back pressed against Bi Yuan’s hot chest, “I didn’t mean to be angry.” He just didn’t understand why Bi Yuan still kept those videos.
So many years had passed since the incident, and all these years, Bi Yuan had kept the videos well-protected, fulfilling his promise at the time not to let them leak out. Xu Yang didn’t feel uneasy about it, but he was still puzzled. “You still haven’t told me why you kept the videos.” Xu Yang remained facing away from Bi Yuan, his voice sounding like a complaint. “I don’t know what’s so interesting about these things.”
Before he could finish, Bi Yuan wrapped his arms around his waist, pressing his body forward as if he wanted to merge with him, and said, “I went on business trips to film studios in other cities for research. Each time I was gone for half a month…”
“Hmm.”
At that time, Bi Yuan had just started taking charge of the studio’s affairs. In order to expand the studio’s development, he often took a hands-on approach and frequently went on business trips, each lasting more than half a month. At that time, the two of them had just confirmed their relationship, and Bi Yuan was still very attached to him, calling him almost every night to ask him questions.
Bi Yuan leaned in close to Xu Yang’s neck, kissing the small section of his neck exposed outside his pajamas. The warm breath from his nostrils brushed against the back of his ear, making Xu Yang itch and shiver slightly. Just as he was about to ask, “Then what happened?” Bi Yuan’s voice suddenly grew hoarse, like someone who had finally gotten drunk after drinking too much, sounding raspy as he said: “Back then, I relied on this video to get through the nights.” After speaking, the hand around Xu Yang’s waist reached for the phone, opening the video stored in the encrypted folder inside.
Xu Yang had never seen this video before. Bi Yuan had never shown it to him, and he had never brought it up either. It seemed to be a taboo secret between them, something they rarely mentioned. This was the first time. He stared in disbelief at himself in the video, engaging in private and shameful acts with an extremely indulgent posture.
“On those nights when I was away on business, I would watch this video and masturbate, imagining that it was my hand touching you, and your hand touching me…” Bi Yuan spoke very close to Xu Yang, whispering as if intentionally tempting him to sin. The phone, which had been held in his right hand, had somehow shifted to his left hand, while his right hand had already slipped into Xu Yang’s pajama bottoms without him noticing.
Bi Yuan’s palm was hot, like a furnace in the cool autumn night. It pressed against his lower abdomen, warmly sliding down his abdomen, passing through the tangled pubic hair, completely enveloping the sleeping thing between his legs, then gently massaging it in an almost unreal way.
The English song playing in the background of the video was softly sung. It was a song Xu Yang loved, but he never imagined it would be presented in such a way in the quiet of the bedroom. The melody lingered, blending with Bi Yuan’s increasingly heavy breathing behind his ear, echoing into Xu Yang’s ears.
He could feel that Bi Yuan was already erect, a hard object pressing against his waist through his pants. Bi Yuan held it in his hand and asked, “Yang Yang, does it feel good?” It was more than just good. Behind him was his own man, and in front of him was a video of himself masturbating. The mix of shame and excitement was indescribable.
Xu Yang suddenly became hyperactive, as if he had taken drugs.
His side-lying leg began to clench consciously, trembling uncontrollably in sync with Bi Yuan’s movements. His pants were easily pulled down to his knees, revealing a smooth buttock. Actually, Xu Yang used to keep the habit of wearing underwear inside his pajama bottoms when sleeping, but since moving here to live with Bi Yuan, sometimes he was so exhausted from being woken up at night that he could barely manage to put on his pajama bottoms, let alone worry about whether to wear underwear or not, so he gradually stopped wearing them.
At that moment, the flesh of his buttocks was highly sensitive, and he could clearly feel the fabric pressing against his buttocks had become noticeably damp. Watching the video where his lower body was zoomed in on, wet and held in his hand, Xu Yang heard Bi Yuan’s breathing growing increasingly heavy.
In the midst of the pleasure, he couldn’t help but start fantasizing. The closed wall’s thing was already wet. If he pulled it out and held it in his hand, would it quickly become as wet as his own? So he trembled as he reached behind him, slipped his hand between himself and the closed wall, pulled out the closed wall’s large thing, and held it in his hand, forgetting to move.
“Yangyang!” At that moment, the closed wall’s breathing almost stopped, but Xu Yang didn’t know what to do. He just held it and didn’t move. The closed wall rubbed urgently against his hand, “Yangyang, move a little.”
“I don’t know how…” The voice was as soft as a mosquito’s buzz.
“I’ll guide you…” After saying that, he pressed his ear against Xu Yang’s and whispered explicit, erotic words into his ear. His hips moved urgently back and forth against Xu Yang’s hand, and because they were so close, several times he directly pressed into Xu Yang’s butt crack. The two hot spots rubbed against each other, flesh against flesh, and soon the crack became wet and sticky, leaving Xu Yang’s butt covered in it.
The phone lay on the bed as their movements grew increasingly intense, the screen playing a video edited into segments, alternating between close-ups of different parts of Xu Yang’s body. Bi Yuan could no longer control his physical desires, even more excited than the first time he saw the video, he thrust his hips violently while holding Xu Yang’s hand.
They continued to rub against each other for a while, both of them sweating lightly. Despite the autumn night, it felt uncomfortably hot. By the end, the mutual masturbation motions were no longer sufficient for them. Bi Yuan grabbed Xu Yang’s wrist and pulled him away, then flipped over and pressed his entire body onto Xu Yang’s back. The already sticky object that Xu Yang had been playing with slowly stretched open his buttocks and pushed inside.
Both of them were breathing heavily. Without lubricant or a condom, the process of copulation caused them some mild pain, but it also heightened their senses. “When you weren’t here, I watched your videos and masturbated…” Bi Yuan said, breathing heavily as he thrust into Xu Yang’s buttocks, whispering in his ear, but Xu Yang suppressed his moans and didn’t know if he had heard.
Bi Yuan said, “The day I got this video, I couldn’t resist and jerked off in the office…”
Xu Yang’s moans began to play from the phone. Hearing his own voice mixed with the music from the player, Xu Yang’s heart felt like it had been electrocuted, and his entire body trembled uncontrollably. His butt suddenly clenched tightly around Bi Yuan.
Almost driven mad by Xu Yang’s tight grip on his anus, Bi Yuan knelt up, grabbed Xu Yang’s waist, lifted his buttocks, and thrust wildly, muttering, “I’m going crazy…”
This primitive copulation, devoid of any technique, left Xu Yang half-paralyzed, completely unable to respond to Bi Yuan’s lewd words. His elbows propped him up on the bed, and all his senses were focused on that small area of his buttocks. Why, why did it feel so tingly and pleasurable, even though it wasn’t an organ meant for sexual intercourse!
From the anal opening all the way to the penis and lower abdomen, which were wet from being rubbed by Bi Yuan, Xu Yang was almost knocked unconscious by the waves of pleasure.
As if feeling that not seeing Xu Yang’s face was missing something, Bi Yuan suddenly stopped thrusting and withdrew his lower body. As his slippery lower body withdrew from Xu Yang’s buttocks, Xu Yang couldn’t help but clamp down on him. In that moment, Bi Yuan bit his teeth and almost couldn’t help but ejaculate. “Yang Yang!”
After flipping him over, the closed wall lifted Xu Yang’s legs, pressing his entire body down, almost folding Xu Yang in half, exposing his already softened buttocks. He licked his mouth wildly and said, “I almost came from you sucking me.” Then he thrust his lower body forward, plunging the entire length inside again.
The pleasure of being penetrated from the front was more intense than from behind. His legs, held up by Bi Yue, were almost touching his shoulders, and most of his buttocks were clearly visible. The object between his legs swayed with Bi Yue’s movements, slapping against his stomach and making a “slap, slap” sound. Bi Yue panted heavily and said intermittently: “That day in the office watching your video, I came all over my pants… Do you know what I was thinking at that moment?”
Xu Yang had no energy left to guess what he was thinking at that moment; he could only open his mouth and moan, so passionate and so lost in the moment. His eyes were fixed on the man who brought him pleasure. He didn’t care about the video or the secret. All he wanted now was to be entangled with this man, like two fish washed ashore, their tails intertwined, struggling to breathe as they bobbed up and down in the waves.
As the climax approached, Xu Yang’s mind went blank, every pore in his body relaxed, and his body trembled uncontrollably in sync with Bi Yuan. The two of them thrust their hips toward each other in a competitive manner.
Bi Yuan thrust himself into Xu Yang’s buttocks. Xu Yang had just climaxed, and his intestines were still contracting uncontrollably. The sensation of being completely enveloped made Bi Yuan feel very comfortable. He asked Xu Yang, “Yang Yang, do you feel good?”
Xu Yang only gave him a soft “mmh,” then heard Bi Yuan sigh proudly, “I’m more comfortable than you,” before suddenly whispering into Xu Yang’s ear, “I love you.” The sensation of having sweet nothings whispered into his ear made Xu Yang tremble involuntarily, causing his buttocks to tighten slightly, which gave Bi Yuan another surge of pleasure.
Bi Yuan held Xu Yang tightly against him, still speaking in a proud tone, “We don’t have the seven-year itch; we’re clearly very happy.” As soon as he finished speaking, he seemed to think of something else. He propped himself up on his elbows and looked at Xu Yang’s dazed eyes, saying, “Yang Yang, do you still want to argue with me?”
His thing was still inside his butt, and even though it had softened, it was still a big, full-sized thing. Xu Yang didn’t know what to say, so he let out a helpless chuckle and said, “Argue? Of course we should argue.”
“Alright, then I’ll say ‘I love you’ to you, and you can say ‘I love you too’ back to me. How about that? That way, I’ll be confessing my feelings to you for the second time.”
“You haven’t confessed your feelings to me a second time.”
“Of course it’s the second time. The first time was at the small square in the park. I said, ‘Let’s be together,’ and you said, ‘Okay.’”
“That doesn’t count. I was the one who confessed first. I was the one who asked you, ‘Are we dating?’”
“How doesn’t it count? You just didn’t hear me clearly.”
“If I didn’t hear you clearly, then it doesn’t count.”
“You’re being stubborn! Even if that doesn’t count, I said ‘I love you’ first just now!”
“Are you trying to pick a fight with me?”
“I don’t want to fight with you.”
“Hmm! Don’t move! Did you take Viagra or some kind of aphrodisiac? How… hmm…”
“Can we do it again…”
One was already past thirty, the other was about to turn forty, yet they were arguing like three-year-olds over the simple question of “who confessed first” and “who said ‘I love you’ first.” But deep down, they both knew that there had never been a question of who came first or last between them. There was only the gentle spring rain, which you couldn’t feel falling, but which unnoticed dampened your clothes and hat, leaving you unable to contain your joy.
Li Mu once asked Bi Yuan, “You’ve been through so many relationships, so why did Xu Yang make you stop?” Bi Yuan didn’t answer, because he couldn’t explain why, just as Xu Yang couldn’t tell him what he liked about him.
The video kept looping, but in the room, it was hard to tell if the moans were from the video on the phone or from their passionate lovemaking, with only the background music murmuring endlessly like an accompaniment.
I need to find an easy way to live
I need to find an easy way to give in my heart
——The End——
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