Chapter 108
Su Bin himself is a normal straight guy with a girlfriend and has never had any interest in men. It’s already a big miracle that he can accept intimacy with a man. On the night when they exchanged vows, Allen asked him to let go of everything, and he seemed to be truly brainwashed—he had no secular pressures to bear, and he didn’t need to care about other people’s opinions. In his world, there was only Allen and no one else.
Thanks to Allen’s methods, if their first experience was terrible, Su Bin might have regretted it quickly. However, every step of Allen’s plan was clever, from confusing kisses to forcing him to feel the touch of the other, to the thorough completion of the act. Su Bin went through the process of shame and resistance, nervous shyness, to gradually acceptance. The psychological resistance to homosexuality was gradually eroded, and he naturally accepted this scenario.
But even at this stage, Su Bin is not naturally gay. He couldn’t just let go and enjoy same-sex love in such a short time. Subconsciously, he still felt that this was an abnormal state. If it weren’t for Allen using the relationship of “master and subordinate” to cover up, and using the sweetness of “family” to entice, Su Bin wouldn’t have foolishly submitted like this.
So, even at this point, if you ask him to reflect on his relationship with Allen, he gets stuck. Allen doesn’t force him, knowing that it’s already challenging for Su Bin to accept this much. At least Su Bin imagines him as a “boyfriend,” which is considered progress.
“Family, boyfriend, ordinary friend, roommate… you decide, you can say anything.” Allen kissed him, “But if others notice something wrong, you’ll have to explain it yourself, I won’t help you.”
Su Bin: “…”
However, Su Bin always feels that Allen’s tone when saying “ordinary friend” and “roommate” is a bit indifferent. He nudges Allen and says, “I’ll think about it.”
After playing in Beijing for a day, Allen tells Su Bin at night that he has decided to take him back to country B earlier.
Su Bin is surprised when he hears the news, “Ah? Don’t wait for Cheng Ge and Jin Fei?”
“Time is hard to come by, and I have urgent matters to attend to back home.” Allen’s attitude is firm.
“Okay…” Although a bit reluctant, Su Bin also knows that Allen has accompanied him for too many days. Also, in recent days, Allen has been coughing a bit, probably due to the air in China. Su Bin feels guilty for making Allen come to China and weaken like this.
Early the next morning, Allen tells Jin Fei that he has already bought a ticket to go back to country B that night.
“So rushed?” Jin Fei thought it was because he didn’t entertain well, asked a few questions, learned that Allen was going back to deal with private matters, and didn’t insist anymore. “But you can let Su Bin play for a few more days and leave with me.”
Allen looks at Su Bin, and Su Bin quickly says, “I’ll go back with Allen.”
Jin Fei: “…” Damn, got a sweetheart and forgot about me!
When Jin Wu learned that they were leaving, she exclaimed, “The vacation is only half over!”
Jin Fei: “You’re not him; he’s busy.”
Allen smiled at Jin Wu, “Elisa, you’re welcome to come to M City in the future.”
Jin Wu: “Allen, can I talk to you alone?”
Jin Fei and Su Bin instantly quieted down, both looking at Jin Wu and Allen…
Jin Fei thought, could this girl really have feelings for Allen? Tsk, she had a warm pie in hand but insisted on digging into an iceberg. These two clearly have a thing for Su Bin’s side…
Politely, Allen agreed to Jin Wu’s request, and she happily took Allen to the garden.
Su Bin’s gaze followed them closely until they were out of sight. He seemed nervous, constantly playing with his phone, occasionally looking in the direction of the garden.
Jin Fei sighed quietly, thinking that it seemed like Su Bin was taking this seriously… Falling for someone like Allen, it’s hard to say if it’s a blessing or a curse.
Jin Wu and Allen soon returned. Su Bin tried to read something from their expressions, but strangely, their faces looked as if nothing had happened.
At noon, Jin Fei called Yang Chengzhe, and the roommates gathered for a brief farewell feast, with Jin Wu also present.
Allen’s emotions were not too revealing, well-known to everyone, but Jin Wu also seemed unreadable, acting as carefree as usual. Jin Fei was puzzled; did he guess wrong?
When no one was paying attention, he nudged the girl with his elbow and asked softly, “What did you say to Allen?”
Jin Wu gave him a look, “I’m not telling you.”
Jin Fei: “…”
Until Allen and Su Bin were ready to leave, Jin Wu stopped Su Bin again, “Bing Ge, come here, let me talk to you for a moment.”
Su Bin, looking puzzled, was dragged into a small room by Jin Wu. Once again, Jin Wu clasped his neck in a “brotherly” manner and said solemnly, “I know everything about you and Allen!”
Su Bin instantly felt confused—everything? What did Allen tell Jin Wu?
Jin Wu said, “Do you know what a grave sin it is to make someone as handsome as a god sad?”
Su Bin: “…” Wait a minute, what does he mean? Allen is the god-like person? When did I make him sad?
Jin Wu earnestly advised, “Don’t dwell on things like gender, nationality, status, body type, or top and bottom… true love doesn’t care about those things, understand?”
Su Bin: “…” It seems like some strange words got mixed in…
Jin Wu took out his phone, “Do you have Facebook? I’ll add you, and you can send me your measurements and height later…”
“I haven’t applied for it. Why do you need that? Um, are you going to design clothes for me?” Su Bin looked at Jin Wu gratefully.
Pretending not to see Su Bin’s expression, Jin Wu continued to ask, “How about MSN?”
Su Bin: “I don’t have it…”
Jin Wu looked surprised, “Damn, are you a primitive man?”
Su Bin spoke the truth; he had only been using Skype lately, and only to chat with Allen. He was about to ask if Jin Wu had Skype when Jin Wu put away the pen, saying, “Forget it, I’ll ask your boyfriend later.”
Su Bin: “…”
After a pause, Jin Wu said, “Uh, I slipped up.”
Su Bin blushed, “Did Allen tell you he’s my boyfriend?”
Since he already slipped up, Jin Wu didn’t hide it anymore and said directly, “Yeah, he also said that you denied his identity after you were done in bed, refused to acknowledge him…”
Su Bin: “I didn’t…”
Jin Wu snorted, “This excAllent little top, so many people want to worship him but don’t get the chance. Cherish him!”
Su Bin: “…” It seems like some strange things got mixed in again… Top and bottom? Little top? Wait, is Jin Wu a fujoshi (yaoi fan)? OAO|||
Jin Wu looked at him disdainfully, “I don’t despise you, so why are you looking at me like you’ve seen a ghost?”
Su Bin awkwardly changed the topic, “Are you going to design clothes for me? Thank you…”
Jin Wu pouted, “I want to design for Allen, but he insisted that I design couple outfits for you two, or he won’t allow it… I have no choice.”
Su Bin chuckled awkwardly, “Thanks anyway.”
Jin Wu patted his shoulder, “Alright, let’s go. If there’s a chance, I’ll visit you in country B.”
During the farewell, Su Bin hugged Jin Wu. Only then did he feel that Jin Wu’s body was slender and soft, completely different from what it appeared on the surface.
Su Bin inexplicably thought of himself and Allen because Allen also liked to say things like “you’re so cute, so petite” when hugging him… Could it be that the feeling he gives Allen is similar to the feeling Jin Wu gives him? Just looking like a boy on the surface?囧
Jin Fei and Yang Chengzhe accompanied them to the airport, saying temporary goodbyes, and Su Bin left reluctantly.
“It’s not like we won’t see each other; at most, there’s a week’s difference between us,” Allen smiled at Su Bin, feeling like he was dealing with a child who hadn’t played enough.
At the airport exit, Allen returned Su Bin’s passport. The staff asked Su Bin to look at the camera, smiling, and asked him, “Studying abroad?”
Su Bin: “Yes…”
The person stamped “exit” on his passport, smiling as he returned it, “Goodbye.”
The word “goodbye” made Su Bin feel a bit melancholic. He didn’t know when he would come back again.
Not far away, Allen was standing at the end of the passage, waiting for him…
“Any regrets?” Allen took back Su Bin’s passport and asked in a low voice.
Su Bin glanced at his phone. He had been holding back from thinking too much. Since the day he left the restaurant, his dad hadn’t sent him a text or called him. It wasn’t the first time they had a silent treatment after an argument, but in the past, living in the same house, they would inevitably run into each other, and he thought it was fine to keep the distance. But now, things were different. That man had another family, another place to go, and he was about to leave… Being treated so indifferently still hurt.
“Send your dad a message,” Allen understood Su Bin’s thoughts.
Su Bin contemplated for a moment and sent a message, “Dad, I’m leaving.”
Having waited in the airport lounge for a long time without receiving a reply, Su Bin thought, his dad probably didn’t see it again. Hehe, maybe by the time he sees it, this number won’t receive signals anymore.
Suddenly, a cup of hot coffee was handed to him. “Back?” Allen sat down beside Su Bin.
Su Bin shook his head, disappointedly took out the sim card from country B, intending to switch it back. Just then, his phone vibrated.
Dad: “Bin Bin, Dad apologizes to you. The Clear Waves house is left to you. Live well on your own.”
Su Bin stared at the message. He thought he wouldn’t shed tears for that man again, but this time, tears welled up like a spring. He shrugged and deleted the message without replying.
“Who the hell wants your house…” he muttered in a voice of grievance.
Allen hugged him, letting him vent without offering comfort. When the boarding announcement came, Allen used a tissue to wipe away his tears, “Let’s go.”
With red eyes, Su Bin followed closely behind Allen, afraid that Allen might leave him behind, not daring to miss a step. He even took the initiative to hold Allen’s hand.
Allen was momentarily surprised but firmly held Su Bin’s hand, slowly curling up the corners of his mouth…
—My Mu, you can’t escape anymore.
Allen still bought first-class tickets, and the conditions in the first-class cabin for international long-haul flights were several times better than those for domestic short-haul flights.
After calming down for a while, Su Bin took out the boarding pass and looked at it. “Are we landing in City D?”
“Yes, I’ll take you back to my house in City D first.” Allen glanced at him, with a meaningful smile on his face.
Their hands were still tightly held together. Allen played with Su Bin’s fingers, with slow and teasing movements, seemingly giving off a hint of a dangerous feeling…
