Chapter 146
Unlike Su Bin, who felt like he had been struck by lightning, Allen seemed to have anticipated this scenario long ago.
“I… I’m very sorry… Mr. Lewis…” William, kneeling on the ground, said humbly, “I’ve always been guessing but didn’t dare to confirm…”
He looked up, meeting Allen’s expressionless gaze.
That gaze, devoid of disdain or hostility, was as calm as if he were looking at a decorative object on the table, but it made William shiver, and he quickly looked down again.
William stared at Allen’s toes, struggling to speak: “You are the… perfect master I’ve been searching for… I admire you greatly… I implore you… to accept me, to discipline me…”
Su Bin’s mind was overwhelmed with countless curses, thinking, “What is this pervert saying!? (╯‵□′)╯︵┻━┻”
In addition to his shock and bewilderment, Su Bin had many doubts. He didn’t understand what exactly their “relationship” was, and in fact, he still couldn’t define the special relationship between himself and Allen; he also didn’t understand why Allen’s few words led William to make such an incredible move…
But Su Bin seemed to see a reflection of himself in William. Was he also this humble when he first knelt before Allen?
…No! They are not the same!
He denied that his past actions were similar to William’s, while feeling a deep sense of panic.
Suddenly, he recalled Allen’s words when they first got together, “I don’t need your love and affection, I only need your obedience”…
Now, someone was willingly surrendering to Allen, far exceeding Su Bin’s initial performance… This must be what Allen wanted, right?
What would Allen do? Would he “accept” him?
…No, don’t!!
Su Bin anxiously looked at Allen, feeling a pang of bitterness and grievance…
Allen looked at Su Bin without any visible emotion, maintaining his silence.
His silence seemed to give William “encouragement,” prompting him to continue: “I’m willing to share you with others, I promise I won’t harm Michael and will perform well… If I don’t do well, you can punish me…”
Su Bin could no longer sit still. He stood up abruptly and, in a suppressed voice, shouted, “Are you crazy!”
William, however, ignored Su Bin’s anger. At that moment, his mind was only on the man in front of him, looking almost possessed, with a fervent expression on his face.
Unable to tolerate it any longer, Su Bin stepped forward, kicked William in the shoulder, sending him sprawling on the ground…
Holding back the impulse to continue kicking him into a mess, Su Bin clenched his fists and shouted at him, “Lewis is mine! He’s mine!”
Before attracting more attention, Su Bin, with a chaotic mind, wanted to drag Allen away—he didn’t care if he would be punished by Allen later!
William looked at Su Bin in astonishment and then pitifully towards Allen, as if silently questioning—this little guy is too disobedient, how do you discipline him?
After enjoying Su Bin’s jealous display, Allen finally showed a hint of pleasure, curling his lips slightly as he looked at William and called his name.
But to Su Bin, it seemed Allen was pleased because of William’s words.
His heart ached terribly… Is this what it feels like to dig your own grave? It’s so painful!
Allen, you promised me I was the only one, if you dare accept him, I’ll… I’ll run away! I won’t listen to you anymore!
…
When Allen called William’s name, William immediately moved an inch forward, almost as if he wanted to kiss Allen’s toes.
But what Allen said broke William’s heart—“You heard him, he doesn’t want you.” Allen stood up, grasped Su Bin’s hand pulling him close, “So, I refuse.”
At that moment, Su Bin’s anger was extinguished…
Allen calmly took his coat, and Su Bin grabbed the long-handled umbrella from the side of the sofa, and couldn’t help but angrily smack the stunned William sitting on the ground. Trembling, he said, “You pervert, liar, I never want to see you again!”
William: “……”
The car drove far away, and Su Bin was still shaken by the earlier events, his hands trembling uncontrollably on the steering wheel, alternating between loosening and tightening.
“Pull over,” Allen said with a frown.
Su Bin obediently slowed down and stopped, his eyes downcast, waiting for a scolding.
But Allen remained silent. Su Bin’s heart was in turmoil, and after nearly half an hour, he took a few deep breaths and took the initiative to apologize, “I’m sorry, Lance…”
Allen crossed his arms and asked, “Have you calmed down?”
Su Bin: “Mm…”
Allen: “Good, continue driving. Let’s go home first.”
Su Bin: “……”
Does this mean they’ll deal with it slowly at home? Boohoo TAT~
Once home, Allen again instructed Su Bin to take a shower first. This time, he sternly reminded him, “Think carefully about what to do later, then come find me in the room.”
An hour later, Su Bin stood in front of Allen in his pajamas.
He wasn’t sure if he should assume the same posture as William did before; he hesitated for a moment but did so anyway.
Allen looked him over and asked, “Tell me, how do you feel now?”
Su Bin didn’t dare to speak…
Allen frowned and said, “Get up.”
Su Bin looked at Allen in confusion, “Lance…”
Allen said sharply, “I order you to get up.”
Su Bin sprang up like a spring, standing nervously beside Allen.
Allen snorted coldly, “You think that using these little tricks will easily please me, amuse me, and earn my forgiveness, don’t you?”
Su Bin: “I…”
“One or twice, I can indulge and tolerate you; three or four times, I might also turn a blind eye…” Allen suddenly raised his voice, “But don’t think of me as a fool like you!”
Su Bin was terrified into silence. It was the first time he had seen Allen like this!
Allen, angrily, said, “If you continue to be so self-righteous, repeatedly doing things in front of me that are against your true feelings, being dishonest and insincere, it will only make our relationship worse!”
At a loss, Su Bin could only resort to the most clumsy method—he stepped forward and hugged Allen’s waist, apologizing desperately, “I’m sorry… You’re the fool, I’m the idiot. Tell me what to do, and I’ll change!”
Seeing Su Bin’s tearful expression, Allen rubbed his forehead and said, “Be honest! I’ve said it countless times, Su Bin, you need to learn to be honest with me!”
Su Bin nodded vigorously, “I will…”
Allen sighed and returned to the earlier question, “Do you understand how William felt when he knelt down just now?”
Su Bin: “I don’t know.”
Allen: “He felt excited and happy.”
…Why would he be happy? Su Bin couldn’t understand.
Allen asked, “And what about you?”
Su Bin hadn’t thought about it much. He just felt that if acting like that could make Allen forgive him sooner, then he would do it… Because the fear of losing Allen back at the bar was too terrifying, but he wasn’t a pervert, so he certainly didn’t find it pleasurable.
“…Uncomfortable,” Su Bin answered honestly.
Allen: “So, if you think that doing such things will please me, it’s insincere behavior. Even if you get used to it someday, it’s just a habit. You only truly like to be close to me and rely on me when you feel insecure, like a child. That is what you genuinely enjoy.”
Su Bin’s heart warmed, realizing that Allen had seen through him long ago…
“So, you are different from William.”
—Allen directly addressed the issue that had troubled Su Bin all night, causing Su Bin’s eyes to well up with tears.
“I want to see a day when everything you do for me is done willingly. Do you understand?” Allen said sternly.
“I understand…” Su Bin blinked, rubbing against Allen, “I’m sorry…”
Allen remained unmoved, and Su Bin persistently kissed him to express his guilt. Allen only responded indifferently.
Su Bin, desperate, finally blushed and pleaded with Allen, “Punish me…”
Allen snorted softly, his deep eyes flickering, and then he grasped Su Bin’s head and kissed him back forcefully…
What a sly, naughty child…
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Afterward, Allen flicked Su Bin’s forehead and said, “Don’t think this is over.”
Su Bin, exhausted, snuggled up to Allen and mustered the courage to ask the questions he didn’t understand: “Why did William guess our relationship and then kneel down to you?”
Allen: “I induced him to misunderstand my relationship with you, which led him to expose himself and make such a gesture.”
Su Bin: “…What did he misunderstand it as?”
Allen: “Master and servant.”
Su Bin was shocked: “Does such a relationship still exist in today’s society?”
Allen: “Many. There is a fixed circle of people involved—some play ‘role-playing’ games, while others have it as a real-life relationship. William thought we were part of that circle. In that circle, there’s no rule that it must be one-on-one. My role is much rarer than his, so he knelt in front of you. But I am not the kind of master he imagined, and you are not my servant.”
“…So, William thought of himself as Allen’s servant? OAO||”
Su Bin felt he needed to reevaluate the world! “What did he want from you?”
“He wanted to be abused by me,” Allen said, touching Su Bin’s nose, “Do you want that?”
Su Bin: “Of course not! I’m not a pervert!”
Allen teased with a smirk, “But sometimes I think you also enjoy me bullying you.”
Su Bin’s face turned red, “I don’t!”—It’s clearly Allen’s own perverse taste!
Su Bin paused, then asked Allen, “Why did William misunderstand us?”
“Because my controlling behavior towards you excited him, and also this…” Allen touched Su Bin’s neck, “He wanted it too.”
Su Bin was confused: “…Why?”
Allen countered, “If I were to take this away from you now, how would you feel? Answer honestly.”
Su Bin hesitated for a while and said, “A bit uncomfortable.”
In fact, it was a bit reluctant. Su Bin vaguely understood that feeling but couldn’t put it into words… Oh no, has he become a pervert too?
Allen explained seriously, “This is a sense of belonging deep within everyone, whether strong or weak. People with a sense of belonging tend to have a better mental state. People like William, probably have a very unstable inner world, so they crave a strong and stable sense of bondage.”
Su Bin: “…How did you know he had that attribute?”
Allen: “Intuition.”
Su Bin: “……”