Chapter 99
Su Bin’s figure paused. He heard Huang Zhengming’s desperate shout behind him, heard Huang Zhengming hoarsely saying, “Don’t leave, I have something to tell you…” His heart suddenly softened.
But before he could think further, Allen pulled him into the hotel’s elevator. Huang Zhengming and the others were blocked outside as Allen signaled the security guards.
Huang Zhengming watched Su Bin’s retreating figure, his face turning pale, his heart like ashes.
He didn’t even know what he wanted to say to stop Su Bin. He just wanted Su Bin to stay…
When he first heard about Su Bin dropping out, he was uneasy. He hoped it was just Su Bin’s impulse. After they apologized and made amends, Su Bin would turn back. But when he heard from others that Su Bin had truly decided to leave, he panicked!
From that moment on, his mind was filled with Su Bin… Su Bin’s happy and silly smiles, his innocent ignorance, his inexplicable tears, his moments of vulnerability and strength, his dedication to something… This kind of Su Bin was disappearing from his world!
No, he didn’t want that. He was wrong. He wanted to make amends… He threw away his pride and tried to get Su Bin to stay. He just wanted to regain the little boy who cried his heart out and laughed without a care deep within him.
But Su Bin didn’t turn back. Everything he said and did indicated that he had been deeply hurt by them.
Huang Zhengming covered his face in agony, murmuring in a voice only he could hear, “Su Bin, I don’t want to hurt you…”
“Zhengling, let’s go…” Chen Xiaotian tugged at his hand, her voice choked, “We’ve done everything we should, but if Su Bin won’t forgive us, we can’t do anything.”
Guo Li chimed in, “Yeah, and you see, he has better friends now…”
“Shut up!” Huang Zhengming suddenly shouted at them angrily, giving Guo Li a glare filled with anger, then he looked at Chen Xiaotian and said slowly, word by word, “Chen Xiaotian, we can’t be together anymore.”
Chen Xiaotian took a sharp breath, “Why?”
Huang Zhengming didn’t answer, his gaze complex.
Chen Xiaotian trembled with frustration, “A moment ago, I could understand that you said those things to make Su Bin forgive us. Now, what’s the reason? Is it because of your guilt? But don’t forget how much I’ve given over these years!”
Huang Zhengming repeated the same phrase, “We can’t be together.”
Chen Xiaotian grew more agitated, “Because of Su Bin? But he already said he won’t forgive us! What more do you want me to do?”
Huang Zhengming shook his head, “When I was with you, it was because before we got together, you promised me that Su Bin would forgive us. But he didn’t…”
Chen Xiaotian was on the brink of collapse, “I also hoped he would forgive us, but how could I have known it would turn out like this?”
Guo Li added, “Come on, Zhengling, don’t be so worked up. Didn’t that guy just say Su Bin is soft-hearted? Maybe he’ll let it go after a while. We can talk to him then.”
Huang Zhengming glanced at him, sighed bitterly, and said, “Didn’t you realize? He won’t consider us friends anymore.”
Guo Li said, “But you and Xiaotian have come a long way…”
Huang Zhengming nodded in confusion and looked at Chen Xiaotian, “Yes, we’ve come a long way. But now I realize that I don’t actually like you.”
Chen Xiaotian was stunned, and so was Guo Li. They had no idea what Huang Zhengming was saying. Had he gone mad from the beating?
Huang Zhengming wiped his eyes that felt swollen and acid, and said to them, “Let’s leave it at this. I want to walk alone and think for a while.” He finished speaking and walked towards the dark West Lake alone.
Seeing this, Guo Li became worried. He told Chen Xiaotian, “Something’s not right with Huang. I need to go check on him. I’m afraid he might do something!” He also had to take Huang Zhengming to the hospital. “You take a cab back to school!”
Chen Xiaotian was speechless, watching as these people left one by one. She burst into tears, feeling the pain of loneliness…
But now, no one would come up to her when she was unhappy, looking concerned and asking, “What’s wrong with you? Are you okay? Did I do something wrong? It’s my fault. Don’t be angry!”
She thought she got what she wanted, but in this moment, she realized that she had paid a heavy price for her pride and stubbornness.
Guo Li hurried to catch up with Huang Zhengming, “Zhengling, don’t do anything drastic!”
Huang Zhengming glanced at him and softly said, “I won’t.”
He walked along the lakeside in silence, the cold wind biting at his heated face, but this pain was nothing compared to the pain in his heart.
He seemed to understand for the first time how painful it was to lose someone.
He suddenly remembered Su Bin when he was abandoned by Chen Xiaotian for the first time – so pitiful, so helpless. That child, when he liked someone, he poured all his emotions onto them… Thinking about this, he could imagine how Su Bin must have suffered when Chen Xiaotian abandoned him in a foreign country for the second time, let alone when he found out Chen Xiaotian was with him…
“I’m truly despicable…” Huang Zhengming suddenly slapped himself, looking at the pitch-black West Lake. The water seemed to hold some magical allure, enticing him to jump in – to jump and end the pain.
But then he remembered Su Bin’s words, “I have both my arms and legs. I won’t jump in the lake to end it all.”
Huang Zhengming slapped himself again, hard, “Coward!” Yes, he was a coward. When he betrayed Su Bin, why didn’t he consider Su Bin’s feelings? Su Bin could say those words, he must have had a moment when he wanted to end it all!
“Heh, do I have the right to commit suicide? I should just bear it on my own…” Huang Zhengming muttered to himself.
Guo Li thought about how this had all stemmed from his mischievous suggestion, then arrogantly thinking he could rectify his mistake. It had ended up with Big Huang and Su Bin, brothers, at odds. Everything had become a mess, and he felt awful. But there’s no remedy for regret in this world, and not all lost feelings can be salvaged.
Mistakes made in youth sometimes require an entire lifetime to atone for.
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“Sometimes the mistakes made in youth require using one’s entire youth to atone.”
Carefully, Allen treated the injury on Su Bin’s hand, which he had scraped while fighting with Huang Zhengming.
After disinfecting the wound, applying ointment, and blowing on it, Allen looked up and noticed Su Bin lost in thought.
“What are you thinking about?” Allen placed his medical kit on the coffee table, sat down beside Su Bin, and casually wrapped his arm around Su Bin’s shoulder.
Su Bin tilted his head and leaned against Allen, finding a comfortable position in his embrace. “Thinking about what Huang Zhengming wanted to say when he called me earlier.”
Allen fell silent for a moment and then asked, “What do you think he wanted to say?”
Su Bin shook his head, leaning against Allen with his neck crooked, and said, “I can’t figure it out…”
Allen chuckled softly and affectionately patted Su Bin’s head. “It’s better not to figure it out. I won’t give him a chance to say anything that might disturb your peace of mind.”
Su Bin was still confused. When it came to hating Huang Zhengming, he had already stopped hating him when Huang Zhengming hugged him and said, “I’m not feeling well at all”…
“Actually, a while ago, when he suddenly called my name, I almost turned back to forgive him,” Su Bin sighed, “Thinking about it now, it’s a good thing I didn’t act on impulse. But I’m still a bit reluctant.” He no longer hated, but he still couldn’t bring himself to forgive…
“Am I being petty?” Su Bin raised his eyes and asked Allen.
“I’m the one being petty, not you,” Allen replied, lowering his head to lightly lick Su Bin’s lips. “From now on, I won’t allow you to think about them.”
Su Bin’s face flushed, and he suddenly glared at Allen. “Ah! I haven’t asked you why you said those things in front of Huang Zhengming earlier… Wait a minute! What are you doing? Mmm…”
Ten seconds later, Su Bin couldn’t say anything anymore.
He was engulfed in Allen’s passionate and dominant kiss, forced to open his mouth as their lips and tongues intertwined. Unconsciously, he found himself sitting on Allen’s lap.
“Think of me, feel me,” Allen’s voice sounded like an enchanting spell. Seeing Su Bin’s lips turning red from their kisses, his eyes dazed, and his bashful attempts to avoid eye contact, Allen couldn’t help but make a low vow in Su Bin’s ear, “Tonight, I want to see you cry for me…”
Su Bin: “…” (T.T)
An hour later, Su Bin was sobbing while begging for mercy, “Lance, no, please…”
Allen: “What did you call me?”
Su Bin: “Wuu~ Master~ Wuu~ That’s enough~”
Allen: “Heh…”
—The night was still young. How could a few tears be enough?
Su Bin slept until the afternoon of the next day, not because he was a heavy sleeper but because Allen had been quite intense last night…
Thinking back to how he had been crying and begging under Allen last night, Su Bin felt like he wanted to spontaneously combust into ashes!
His eyes were still puffy. Clutching his pillow, he felt embarrassed and angry. He was embarrassed about his helpless appearance and angry at Allen’s wickedness…
Wu~ To treat me like this! No, I must escape!
“Awake?” Seeing the movement on the bed, Allen walked over. He had gotten up much earlier than Su Bin. “Hungry or not?”
Pulling Su Bin out of the blankets, when he saw Su Bin’s humiliated and embarrassed expression, Allen felt a surge of heat in his lower abdomen… Ah, it’s just not enough to tease him~
Su Bin, sulking, buried his face in the other direction, not wanting Allen to see his expression.
Allen took away Su Bin’s pillow, lifting both him and the blanket. “Get up when you’re done sleeping. We’re leaving tonight.”
“Leaving?” Su Bin’s voice sounded nasal. “Where are we going?”
“To Jin Fei’s house,” Allen replied. He had a bit of an anxious tone. “But aren’t you still in the process of withdrawing from school?”
“I already received your personal files this morning,” Allen explained. “I just handed your university transcript over to our agent. They will help with transferring to the new school.”
“Oh…” Su Bin replied.
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Allen kissed Su Bin’s cheek. “Go take a shower. We’ll head downstairs to have a simple dinner with Jin Fei and the others before we leave.”
Su Bin obediently agreed. As he showered, he thought to himself. His academic issues weren’t resolved yet, and his records were still in Allen’s possession. He had to rely on this person… Well, maybe he shouldn’t run away after all.
When he finished his shower and came out, he saw Allen packing their luggage. Su Bin approached, trying to please him. “Let me do it~” He didn’t know where his records were.
“Heh, want to help?” Allen gestured to the smaller suitcase beside him and instructed, “Fold the clothes neatly and put them in the vacuum bags.”
Their changed underwear had already been washed, ironed, and delivered by the hotel. Su Bin saw both their underwear mixed together and felt a bit embarrassed.
He rolled up his own underwear, then hesitated as he went to roll up Allen’s. With each piece he rolled, his face turned redder. After he finished folding and putting them in the vacuum bag, he looked at the suitcase and almost freaked out. He saw an almost empty bottle of lubricant, black silk restraints, a strange rod, and a peculiar egg…
…Help! He really should escape! (T.T)
Seeing Su Bin indignantly burying those shameful props beneath the bags of clothes, Allen purposely approached, hugging him from behind. He playfully teased, “Why so shy?”
Su Bin felt Allen’s warm breath on his neck as he held him, and he sensitively wanted to hide. “N-No, nothing…”
While kissing him, Allen said, “These are all things that make you feel very comfortable…”
Su Bin protested, “What are you talking about…” Clearly, you forcibly used them on me! (T.T) Wahh~
Allen replied, “Be honest, Mu. Your body enjoys it; it’s just that your heart isn’t used to it yet.”
Su Bin denied, “I don’t…”
Allen continued, “Don’t admit it? How about I put an egg in your body later? I guarantee you’ll get used to it in a day.”
“No, no, no! Okay, I admit it… but I don’t want it!” Su Bin begged, using his head to plead with Allen.
Allen chuckled softly, holding him tightly, and kissed his eyes. “Get up, let’s go eat.” —Finally, besides me, you have no other way out.
