Chapter 48
Fan Xing, feeling uneasy, avoided the eager gaze of the man and continued softly, “Although my brother always likes to tease me, I know he treats me well. So, I’ve always felt fortunate that my brother is the person I’ve met. During the half-month when my brother went abroad for work recently, I found that I didn’t want to go home. I unconsciously counted the days until my brother’s return, wishing to see him sooner.”
He Qingmo felt the joy in his heart was about to burst. He gently pulled Fan Xing over, wanting to hug and kiss him, but Fan Xing’s hand rested on his chest, and he spoke, “My brother didn’t come back one night, and when I called, I heard him with Zhou Haoran. I know you two don’t have anything, but I still felt uncomfortable. I accompanied Senior Lu Chi to the bar, and Senior Lu Chi was very sad… Actually, I was also very sad at that time. I wanted to get drunk like Senior Lu Chi, so I wouldn’t have to think about anything. But I have to perform surgeries for patients in the future, so I can’t drink.”
Listening to Fan Xing’s gentle reminiscence, He Qingmo’s emotions were complex, mixed with joy, regret, and tenderness. However, Fan Xing’s last sentence made him laugh and cry, “So, you were thinking about these things at that time?”
Fan Xing nodded seriously, “Of course, I have to be responsible for the lives of my patients!”
In fact, the hospital’s requirement for doctors is only not to drink during working hours, but Fan Xing has his principles. He has already set a direction for his future.
He is the kind of person who, once he sets a goal, will strictly demand it of himself. So, even if he was sad at that time, he did not lose his sanity and forget his principles.
He Qingmo gently played with his hair, with a hint of pride in his tone, “Little Fan Xing will definitely become the best cardiac surgeon in the future.”
Suddenly praised, Fan Xing felt a bit embarrassed, smiled, revealing a shallow dimple at the corner of his mouth. However, the man asked again, “What happened next?”
Fan Xing paused slightly, bringing the topic back, “Later, my brother didn’t come back one night. When I called, I heard my brother was with Zhou Haoran. I know you two don’t have anything, but I still felt uncomfortable. After sending Senior Lu Chi back that night, it was already dawn. I was walking alone on the road and didn’t want to go home. I thought if I went back and my brother hadn’t returned, what should I do? It would mean my brother spent the night with Zhou Haoran. Thinking about all this made me very uncomfortable.”
Fan Xing stopped here, and He Qingmo did not interrupt, just silently waiting for Fan Xing to adjust his emotions.
After a while, Fan Xing spoke again, “I sent Senior Lu Chi back, and it was already dawn. I walked alone on the road, not wanting to go home. I thought if I went back and my brother hadn’t returned, what should I do? It would mean my brother spent the night with Zhou Haoran. Thinking about all this made me very uncomfortable.”
Fan Xing paused and continued, “I realized that I couldn’t go back, so I stood at an empty intersection counting the traffic lights. If I went back and my brother hadn’t returned, what should I do? It would mean my brother spent the night with Zhou Haoran. Thinking about all this made me very uncomfortable.”
At this point, Fan Xing stopped and He Qingmo didn’t interrupt, just patiently waiting for him to continue.
After a while, Fan Xing spoke again, “I sent Senior Lu Chi back, and it was already dawn. I walked alone on the road, not wanting to go home. I thought if I went back and my brother hadn’t returned, what should I do? It would mean my brother spent the night with Zhou Haoran. Thinking about all this made me very uncomfortable.”
Fan Xing stopped again, and He Qingmo remained silent, allowing Fan Xing to continue adjusting his emotions.
After a while, Fan Xing spoke softly, “I couldn’t figure it out before, why I would be so anxious to see you after my brother was away for only half a month. Until that day, when I saw my brother with someone else, and I felt as sad as Senior Lu Chi did, I realized… I like my brother. So, when I saw you with someone else, I felt so upset. I was just jealous, I know.”
Fan Xing stood at the deserted intersection that morning, counting the traffic lights, and he understood. He realized he liked He Qingmo.
Maybe this emotion came too quickly. After all, he had only known He Qingmo for a few months. However, when He Qingmo went abroad, Fan Xing counted the days until his return sincerely. When he saw He Qingmo with someone else, his distress was genuine.
These facts were in front of him. If he didn’t like He Qingmo, how could he explain it?
Unable to contain himself, He Qingmo hugged Fan Xing tightly, feeling not only the joy of Fan Xing’s confession but also regret and tenderness. Although the night he didn’t come home was an accident, and it made Fan Xing realize his feelings, He Qingmo regretted that Fan Xing had to go through such pain and struggle to understand. He preferred to take more time, letting Fan Xing gradually comprehend it, rather than having him realize it in sorrow.
Holding Fan Xing tightly, He Qingmo apologized softly, “I’m sorry, Fan Xing, I’m sorry. This won’t happen again, I promise.”
Fan Xing smiled gently, comforting him, “It’s okay. I know now, and it’s not my brother’s fault. I just wanted to tell my brother that I like him too.”
Such a sweet and understanding confession from a child online made it difficult for He Qingmo to contain his guilt and tenderness. He released Fan Xing, and as he lowered his head to kiss the boy, Fan Xing resisted, pushing his hands against He Qingmo’s chest, saying, “Wait, I haven’t finished yet.”
He Qingmo could only suppress his impatience and wait patiently.
Seeing the man’s eager eyes, Fan Xing, who was holding back, felt like laughing. Suddenly, he remembered what he wanted to say, and the smile faded. “I told my brother just now that I used to like someone, a very special friend.”
Fan Xing lowered his head, hesitated for a moment, and then briefly recounted his relationship with Eric. “I used to fantasize that when we went to university together, I would find an opportunity to confess to him, maybe he would agree, and then… we could be together. But my grandmother got sick, I had no money, and my mother had trouble at home. So, I returned to China.”
At that time, when facing Fan Mei Xi’s conditions, Fan Xing didn’t hesitate to agree because his grandmother was the most important person to him. He gave up the best university in the world and married a man he didn’t know, even going to bed with him. He had no problem with that.
But how could he not feel sad in his heart?
What made him even more regretful was the unspoken feelings that may never be spoken. Perhaps he would never have the opportunity to confess those feelings.
But even if he confessed, what could he do? Perhaps Eric would reject him. Maybe Eric didn’t like him at all. After confessing, they might not even be able to remain friends.
After all, before yesterday, he had no idea about Eric’s feelings for him. He had no self-confidence.
So gradually, he felt that it was better not to say anything. It was like a dream he had made, a dream hidden in his heart that he couldn’t let others know.
Who hasn’t secretly liked someone at this age? But how many people can really be with that person?
That’s just a chapter of life experiences, and looking back many years later, even if you couldn’t be together, you still find it a beautiful memory.
“But my brother told me yesterday that he likes me. He liked me from the first time he saw me and has been waiting for us to go to university together so he can confess to me. I just realized… I wasn’t the only one dreaming. I…”
Thinking about Eric’s words from yesterday, Fan Xing felt a deep discomfort.
He never thought that it wasn’t just his dream. During that holiday, they both eagerly waited for school to start, anticipating the opportunity to confess to each other.
When Fan Xing heard Eric’s words, he almost collapsed.
On the same day he realized he liked He Qingmo, the boy he had once kept in his heart, only daring to dream about, told him that he had liked him all along.
At that moment, Fan Xing felt like fate was playing a huge joke on him.
Even though he now clearly understood his feelings, he couldn’t help but feel regret and pity for Eric.
He didn’t know how to face Eric, afraid of seeing him hurt.
“Brother, I know I’m getting married, and I should act like someone who’s about to get married. But I really feel uncomfortable inside. I don’t know how to face him. I even blame myself, why did I have to like my brother so quickly? Am I too fickle? I…”
“Nonsense!” The man who had been silent finally spoke, gently interrupting him. “If you could like me so quickly, it only means that I am the right person for you.”
“But…”
“There’s no ‘but.’ Fan Xing, it’s not your fault.” The man gently stroked his face, comforting him. “You thought it was impossible with him, so subconsciously, you gave up on that feeling. Besides, you didn’t know his feelings for you. In this situation, liking someone else is not wrong at all. Don’t blame yourself for everything, okay?”
“But…”
“I understand that you don’t want to hurt his feelings, but Fan Xing, instead of dragging it out, it’s better to tell the truth. Let him make his own choice.” He Qingmo advised.
Fan Xing bit his lip and whispered, “I know, but… Brother… I…”
I can’t say it!
How could he not know that in such situations, it’s best to cut the Gordian knot with a quick decision? But that was Eric.
He used to like that boy so much; now, he couldn’t bear to see him hurt.
Seeing him struggling, He Qingmo felt sorry for him, hugging him gently and comforting him along his back. “Don’t rush. You can think about it again. Maybe you can find a better solution. Don’t worry, I won’t interfere, and I won’t be jealous, okay?”
Fan Xing leaned against the man’s chest, not saying anything. After a while, he nodded slightly and said, “Hmm, thank you, brother. I’ll handle it.”
In fact, he didn’t tell He Qingmo all this to seek advice. It was his own matter, and he should deal with it himself. He spoke up to avoid unnecessary misunderstandings.
He did fall for someone else, falling for He Qingmo. But Eric was different from anyone else, even though Fan Xing now understood his feelings for He Qingmo, he couldn’t ignore Eric’s feelings.
He didn’t want He Qingmo to misunderstand him due to lack of information. Now it seemed that He Qingmo understood his intentions, and he felt relieved.
With everything out in the open, Fan Xing’s confused feelings from the past half month at school finally cleared up. He chattered to He Qingmo about everything that happened at school, including the ongoing school beauty voting on the campus forum. When he found out he was leading the poll, he wrinkled his nose in annoyance, “I really don’t understand why I have to be nominated for this just because I cross-dressed once, even if it was for acting. If the school beauty doesn’t have to be gender-specific, why don’t they nominate Senior Lu Chi? Senior Lu Chi is better than me… Hey?”
He spoke half righteously and suddenly remembered something. Grabbing He Qingmo, he asked, “Brother, you said yesterday that you’ve never had a boyfriend before, and you haven’t even touched Senior Lu Chi and the others in the three months you were together. But Senior Lu Chi said you treated him exceptionally well, even staying up all night to take care of him when he was sick. I know you didn’t take care of him, but being together for three months can’t be fake, right? And I don’t think it’s a lie because Senior Lu Chi told the story in great detail, even repeating it the night before last when he got drunk. How can someone remember a made-up story after getting drunk? It must be something that really happened.”
Fan Xing’s words weren’t meant to question He Qingmo; he genuinely found it strange.
He Qingmo was also puzzled. When Fan Xing asked him about taking care of Lu Chi, he found it strange and suspected that Lu Chi might have intentionally said those things to mislead Fan Xing. So, he had Song Yang investigate Lu Chi, but nothing significant came up. Lu Chi had some peculiar hobbies and had been mocked since childhood, but there was nothing seriously wrong with his personality. After observing him for a while, Song Yang didn’t find any evidence of him causing trouble. He Qingmo didn’t pay much attention to the matter since he was quite busy.
But now, it seemed there was indeed a problem.
“He confirmed that it was me he talked about?” He Qingmo asked.
Fan Xing nodded, “Yes, he found out it was you. Knowing that it was you, treating him so well, and then suddenly changing after three months, he couldn’t accept it. When he saw you trending with Zhou Haoran that day, he even said that maybe you had someone you liked in your heart, using him as a substitute. Brother, didn’t you notice Zhou Haoran looks a lot like Lu Chi?”
He Qingmo frowned, seriously recalling the appearances of Zhou Haoran and Lu Chi. He hadn’t paid attention before, but now, thanks to Fan Xing’s revelation, he realized it was true. Moreover…
He immediately understood what was going on, picked up his phone, and called Xiao Yu. Without giving Xiao Yu a chance to speak, he said, “Come to my place within half an hour!” and hung up.
Fan Xing looked at him in confusion. With bright, blinking eyes, he asked, “Brother, do you know what’s going on?”
He Qingmo suppressed his annoyance, pinched Fan Xing’s little face, and said, “Wait a moment, you’ll find out soon.”
Half an hour later, Xiao Yu arrived in a hurry. As soon as he entered, he shouted at He Qingmo, “He Qingmo, are you in a hurry to reincarnate or something? You know where I was, and you give me only half an hour…”
Smack!
He Qingmo didn’t let him finish; he had already grabbed a water glass from the coffee table and thrown it at him.
Xiao Yu was startled by the sudden attack, and before he could speak, He Qingmo coldly interrupted, “What’s going on with you and Lu Chi?”
Ah?
Fan Xing still hadn’t closed his wide-open mouth. What was happening? Fan Xing felt like he understood, but at the same time, he was completely confused.
Leaning on the sofa, Xiao Yu crossed his legs, adopting a relaxed posture. His tone was casual, “What else could it be? That stubborn Lu Chi likes you. I’ve hinted at him multiple times. I spent a few months with him. How much can I endure? Either he pretends not to understand, or he gets mad at me. I just wanted to sleep with him, what else could I do? Anyway, considering your temper, you’ll probably disappear for a few months after working with someone else next time. So, during that time, I pretended to be you communicating with him about feelings and fooled him into bed.”
Fan Xing couldn’t believe what he was hearing. After a while, he found his voice and said, “So, you mean Lu Chi thought that the three months he spent with my brother were actually with you? How is that possible? Three months, and you guys, you didn’t…”
Xiao Yu laughed, looking quite carefree, “Shouldn’t you know this, little sister? Those three months, besides being in bed, we never met. Even in bed, it was in the dark, and no one could see anyone. I just changed my WeChat name, told him I was the He He Qingmo was thinking about, and sent a few meaningless messages. He took the bait.”
Fan Xing’s hand involuntarily tightened, and his knuckles turned white. Although he felt shocked, he still clung to a faint hope and whispered, “But Lu Chi said you were good to him. You celebrated his birthday, took him to an amusement park for a date, and stayed up all night taking care of him when he was sick.”
Xiao Yu shrugged, “So, these kids nowadays are easy to deceive. After we finished, I left and put a little toy I randomly bought on the side of the bed. He thought it was for his birthday. The date was just a matter of spending some money to book an amusement park and arranging a few surprises. It’s all routine. I didn’t even show up. I don’t know why he was so happy playing by himself. As for taking care of him…”
Xiao Yu thought hard for a moment before remembering, “Oh, I remember now. I was a bit too harsh that time, and he ended up with a fever. He was in a daze, so I couldn’t just leave him alone. I waited until his fever subsided before leaving. Does that count as taking care of him for a night?”
Thanks for the update
What a scumbag! Omg….. I feel so sad for Lu Chi, everything he thought was real was just a plan to bed him. The fact that it’s not even the person he thinks it is 😭😭😭
I really want to hit that guy just once please 🤬
Thanks for the update!!