Chapter 180

What does it mean to promise to live and die together? And why does he beg himself not to leave him?

“What on earth are you talking about?” Allen was filled with confusion as he looked at the person in front of him, talking to himself.

But he knew that Su Bin had not mistaken him. Despite the incoherent ramblings, the person was sitting on his lap, his arms around his neck, and calling his name… So these words were indeed directed at him.

However, this person was so drunk that he couldn’t be serious. Even if Allen asked him something, he wouldn’t be able to answer. Instead, he figured it was more practical to listen to whatever else Su Bin might say in this state.

So, although it would have been easy to simply shove this person off and throw him out of the car, Allen hesitated to act.

At that moment, Su Bin felt a burning fire in his abdomen, the heat spreading throughout his body, desperately trying to escape through his skin… Their bodies touching made Su Bin feel so comfortable that he almost sighed.

“Why are you so cold…” Su Bin, not knowing whether his own body temperature was abnormal, grabbed Allen’s hand with tenderness and pressed his burning cheek against it. Then, he moved his lips to kiss Allen’s palm, as if a devout believer kissing their deity, trying to warm him up.

Seeing that Allen didn’t push him away, Su Bin took it a step further, pulling his head into a tight embrace, like a small animal. He leaned in to nuzzle his face against Ellen’s, then extended his tongue to lick the ear, whispering in his lover’s ear, “Lance, I love you…”

Allen sucked in a sharp breath, no longer able to stay calm enough to investigate this person or the mysteries surrounding him. At this moment, he just wanted to silence that mischievous mouth.

In matters like this, passivity was never in Allen’s nature. Unless he didn’t want it, if he did, the control had to be in his hands—he took the initiative, stealing away the other’s breath, capturing the softness that tried to retreat, sucking and teasing, tangled in a passionate embrace…

It wasn’t until the person in his arms let out an unbearable moan from their throat that he reluctantly pulled away, lightly pecking at the almost bloodied red lips, a low laugh escaping from Allen’s lips, “You taste so spicy.”

Su Bin: “…” Am I sexy? Heh… oo

The small car seemed to be on fire, the air heavy with the temperature of ambiguous sparks.

Su Bin was gasping, his dazed eyes covered with a layer of moisture. He wasn’t sure if it was the alcohol or the kiss just now that had made him even more drunk.

Allen spoke, instructing Robert to drive them home. Along the way, their bodies touched almost too much, as if they were on the verge of crossing a line.

Upon arriving home, Allen tugged at his collar and took a deep breath, trying to get Su Bin off him, but Su Bin still held on tightly.

“Do you want me to carry you upstairs?” Allen raised an eyebrow.

Su Bin nodded eagerly, excitement written all over his face. He was getting more and more agitated…

Allen muttered, “Drunkard,” and lifted him up. Su Bin responded by hooking his feet around Allen’s waist, clinging to him like a koala, completely satisfied.

Allen’s eyes twitched. Luckily, Su Bin was small, so carrying him wasn’t too difficult. If it were someone closer to his size, he would have just thrown him out.

When they reached the door to the room, Su Bin still wouldn’t let go, like a stubborn piece of gum.

Allen carried him into his room and, unable to take it anymore, flicked Su Bin’s forehead like he would with a cat, saying, “Let go.”

Su Bin finally released his hold, and with a soft thud, he landed on the soft bed, curling up his legs. “Hurry up~”

Allen chuckled, “…In such a hurry?”

Su Bin looked at him with eager eyes, shamelessly starting to unbutton his own shirt.

Ellen, with a half-smile, watched him as he took off his own jacket and grabbed something from the wardrobe. He then sat on the edge of the bed, caught Su Bin who was already down to his undergarments, held his arm, and administered a sedative.

Su Bin: “…”

Blinking a couple of times, Su Bin felt an overwhelming drowsiness come over him. He panicked, Why are you giving me a shot?

“Little demon…” Allen gazed at the tired expression on Su Bin’s face, and his lips curled into a barely perceptible smile.

Su Bin used his last glance to silently beg his lover: Don’t go, Allen, don’t leave me…

With a hand gently covering his sorrowful eyes, Allen whispered softly, “I admit you’re good at this, but not tonight.”

—Before I fully understand who you are, I won’t touch you.

Allen retracted the needle, suppressing the stirrings of desire inside him, watching the innocent look on the sleeping man’s face. He couldn’t help but lean down and angrily bite Su Bin’s lips.

—Besides, I still need to figure out how to have relations with a man.

The next morning, Su Bin woke up groggily and saw the handsome man lying beside him. His mind was blown… What happened here?!

Remembering bits and pieces of last night, Su Bin felt his head spin. Had Allen found him? What did he say? Why did Allen bring him to bed?

Ahhhhhh… I can’t remember!

…No, wait, calm down! Isn’t this exactly what I’ve been dreaming of? I successfully seduced Ellen!

Su Bin’s heart raced as he moved slightly, but quickly realized that some private part of him didn’t feel the same as it had after past experiences.

…Wait, did nothing actually happen? (=口=)
This kind of thing should have happened in the past life. If he had initiated it, Allen would have definitely made him feel… like he wouldn’t want to do it a second time! But now… sob sob sob~~~

As he was recalling this with a complicated mood, a voice suddenly drifted beside him—”I didn’t sleep with you.”

Allen had woken up at some point, propping his arm under his head, lying sideways and observing Su Bin. A familiar, teasing expression appeared on his face. “Feeling disappointed?”

Su Bin: “…”

Seeing that Allen was awake, he leisurely began his interrogation. “Or did you think that just because you slept in my bed, I’d treat you differently?” His voice was lazy and hoarse, but the question made Su Bin feel deeply embarrassed.

“I didn’t…” Su Bin’s face flushed, and he lowered his eyes, trying to sit up.

But Allen suddenly reached out and pressed down on his shoulder, preventing him from getting up. “I’ll give you a chance to explain.”

Su Bin opened his mouth, unsure where to begin.

Allen noticed the flicker in Su Bin’s eyes and his hesitation, and snorted lightly. “Not going to say? Fine, pack up this afternoon and move out.”

“No!” Su Bin’s eyes welled up with tears. He looked at Allen and begged, “Please don’t make me leave…”

Looking at his reddened eyes, it was as though an unfamiliar switch in Allen’s mind had been flipped, and a wicked thought surged within him… This person really made him want to be a little rough, to tease, to frighten him, until he made him cry… that would be perfect.

“Then give me a reason not to make you leave,” Allen stared at him. “You know what I mean.”

Su Bin’s hidden feelings of infatuation were impossible to conceal. Under the gaze that seemed to see through him, he had no choice but to blurt out, “I… I love you…”

Allen froze for a moment, then smiled and said, “Love? What do you love about me?”

Su Bin couldn’t answer. To him, as long as it was Allen, he would love him sincerely and instinctively, whether it was his body or soul…

Allen raised an eyebrow. “How long have you known me? How can you fall in love with me?”

Su Bin stuttered, “I… I fell in love with you at first sight.”

Allen: “…”

Su Bin couldn’t tell Allen the truth, as no one would believe him, and Allen would only think he was delusional and mentally unstable!

He gritted his teeth and continued to lie, “The first time I saw you, I felt like I had seen you before. You seemed familiar, and I couldn’t help wanting to stay by your side, to be kind to you…” The beginning was a lie, but the rest of it was sincere, so Su Bin spoke genuinely.

Allen stared at him, as if trying to assess the truth of his words. “Did you call me ‘Lance’ last night? How do you know my middle name?” he asked.

Su Bin quickly fabricated an excuse, “I… I snuck into your room and looked at your notebook. It had your full name…”

Allen narrowed his eyes, visibly displeased. “You went into my room without my permission?”

Su Bin hurriedly apologized, “I’m sorry, I know it was wrong, but I only looked at your name, I didn’t look at anything else. I won’t do anything harmful to you…”

But unfortunately, Allen looked extremely angry. “Do you know that just this is enough to make me disgusted?” His tone was cold, and his gaze toward Su Bin was as sharp as a knife.

Su Bin choked up, pleading, “If you don’t like me, I’ll try to avoid you, not disturb you, but please don’t make me leave…”

Having never been treated this way by Allen before, Su Bin was overwhelmed with emotions, unable to suppress his tears, which flowed uncontrollably.

Allen’s gaze burned with intensity, his pulse racing, and his heart filled with a sensation he had never experienced before.

“Why are you crying?” He leaned in, pressing his body against Su Bin’s.

Su Bin raised his hand to cover his face, trying to suppress his sobs, feeling too embarrassed to look at him.

Allen reached for his hand, and despite Su Bin trying to avoid it, he couldn’t escape. In the end, Allen grabbed his hand and pinned him to the bed, leaving him no chance to hide.

Seeing Su Bin’s pitiful state, Allen’s earlier coldness disappeared, and his voice softened considerably.

“Is it really so painful, falling in love with me?” He raised his other hand and gently wiped away the tears from Su Bin’s face, a satisfied smile tugging at his lips.

 

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