Chapter 181

Perhaps it was because of the contrast with Allen’s earlier cold interrogation that his action of wiping away the tears felt especially gentle.

Su Bin, like a thirsty traveler encountering fresh water, desperately drank in this moment of warmth…

He had never felt wronged for falling in love with this person, because there was no one else in the world who could offer him the promise of “never leaving or abandoning” him. Only by truly loving him could that balance be achieved.

Unfortunately, in his past life, Allen had kept his promise and created a world for him without lies or betrayal. But Su Bin had been lost in the one-sided enjoyment, ignoring Allen’s needs… It wasn’t until death separated them that he came to a profound realization.

Fortunately, heaven had given him another chance to make things right. No matter how much suffering or humiliation he had to endure, Su Bin would willingly accept it. But the recent experience made him realize once again how precious the tenderness Allen had once given him was, and it made him feel even more sorrowful for the love he had already lost.

This time, let me fall in love with you first, accompany you, promise you, and never leave you for life.

I only ask one thing: please don’t make me leave, please don’t reject me…

Su Bin didn’t say anything, but Allen understood what he was thinking.

Yet, he didn’t understand what kind of feeling could make someone look at him with such an expression…

They say love is an invaluable luxury. No one knows when it will happen or how long it will last. Many people desire it but can’t obtain it, and yet they long for it their whole lives.

In the past, Allen thought he didn’t need such an intangible thing. But now he realized he was wrong.

Meeting a love like this would unknowingly captivate a person. If he didn’t want it, he’d be a fool.

“Stop crying, I’m not going to make you leave…” Allen finally spoke in an attempt to comfort him, almost as if he feared continuing to tease him would cause him to run away. But he didn’t want to easily grant Su Bin’s wish, and instead, greedily wanted to see just how far this person, who claimed to love him, could go.

“But I have a condition,” Allen reached out to touch Su Bin’s lips and whispered, “Don’t lie to me.”

“Uh…” Su Bin, who had been visibly relieved, suddenly froze at the latter half of the sentence. What should he do? He had just told Allen so many lies.

Allen raised an eyebrow. “What’s wrong? Can’t do even that?”

Su Bin shook his head repeatedly, his face wrinkling in distress. After a moment’s struggle, he awkwardly explained, “I really love you, but there are some things I lied about, I’m sorry, I can’t tell you the truth…”

Allen pinched his chin. “Michael, until I trust you, your love means nothing to me. I hope you understand that.”

Su Bin looked at him with a pitiful expression, as if trying to show that he was harmless.

Allen ignored him and continued with his terms: “If you’re just my roommate, I don’t care what you say. But if you want something more intimate with me, you can’t hide anything from me.”

Su Bin froze. Allen’s words clearly hinted at the possibility of a more intimate relationship between them! But the prerequisite was no secrets…

Was Allen forcing him to tell everything? Su Bin hesitated again.

Allen released him and said, “You don’t need to respond right now. I’ll give you time to think it through.”

Su Bin: “…”

After being sent back to his room with a blanket, Su Bin entered a period of agonizing contemplation that lasted several days.

To confess or not to confess, that was the serious question—

If he confessed, Su Bin could reveal many unknown things about Allen, including the Roland Manor and his Himalayan cat. But someone with the right resources could easily investigate and find out, considering Allen’s prominent background… But if Allen didn’t believe him, as he had warned earlier, Su Bin might be considered a pervert and never regain Allen’s trust!

But if he didn’t confess, there would be no possibility for their relationship to progress. Allen had made that very clear, and given his personality, there was no room for negotiation…

Fortunately, due to the masquerade ball, their relationship had changed in subtle ways.

Jin Fei, who had noticed the change, caught Su Bin and asked about his situation with Allen: “You didn’t show up at the masquerade ball the other day. Did you try to test Allen?”

Su Bin awkwardly replied. It wasn’t just “testing”—he had been played with and made a fool of, it had been a humiliating night…

Jin Fei excitedly pressed, “So, does he like men?”

“Uh… it seems so…” Su Bin wasn’t sure if Allen had just been teasing him or if there had been some real attraction, though later he had taken Su Bin home, but nothing had happened between them.

Jin Fei stroked his chin. “It feels like Allen has been paying more attention to you recently.”

Su Bin felt a bit excited. “Really?”

Jin Fei nodded. “Yeah, have you done something?”

Su Bin blushed and hesitantly replied, “I, uh, confessed to him when I was drunk that day.”
Jin Fei twitched the corner of his mouth. He had told him not to rush with the confession, but this foolish kid was really throwing everything away… There was no saving him!

“But Allen still hasn’t accepted me…” Su Bin started to worry again.

“…” It would be strange if he did, Allen was extremely scheming!

But, given that Allen hadn’t rejected Su Bin and had even shown more attention, perhaps that was a good sign?

Jin Fei patted Su Bin’s shoulder and encouraged him, “Look on the bright side, keep going!~” — this was all I could help you with.

Su Bin: “Mm!”

Encouraged a little by Jin Fei, Su Bin didn’t forget to continue to please Allen over the next couple of days. He made coffee, baked cookies, washed clothes, and polished shoes. He almost wanted to transform into the perfect servant, always staying close to Allen, hoping that through these daily interactions he could increase his favor and perhaps win Allen over.

Unfortunately, Allen, who had decided to remain cold to him until Su Bin made a decision, barely gave him any further opportunities. The gentle moments after their interrogation had been the last sweetness he offered.

Su Bin could only rely on the memories of their brief physical contact. Every night, like a drug addict, he tossed and turned on his bed, hungry and desperate.

Half a month passed, and Su Bin, now deeply entangled in Allen’s teasing, began to waver.

…Maybe I should confess? Although there’s a risk, at least after saying it, I will have peace of mind. Besides, I’ve been prepared from the start, no matter how Allen rejects me, I won’t give up on pursuing him, right?

I can’t stand seeing him so cold and distant anymore… qaq

After much internal struggle, Su Bin finally knocked on Allen’s door one evening after dinner.

“Allen…” Su Bin stood outside the door, nervously twisting his fingers, “I’ve made up my mind. I’ve decided to tell you the truth.”

Allen crossed his arms and looked at him for two seconds before stepping aside to let him in. The room only had one chair, and Allen pointed to the edge of the bed, signaling Su Bin to sit there.

Su Bin shook his head and stood in front of Allen, like a child confessing a mistake to a teacher.

This equal stance somehow satisfied Allen. He interlaced his fingers and said softly, “Go ahead.”

Su Bin: “What I said about falling in love at first sight was a lie… Actually, I’m someone who came from the future.”

Allen: “…………”

Su Bin had expected Allen to look confused, so he tried to ignore it and, with his head lowered, began to tell Allen the story of their lives in another timeline—from their first meeting, the series of misunderstandings that followed, to the moments they shared after getting together, and his guilt and pain after Allen’s tragic departure…

When he reached the moment of Allen’s death, Su Bin almost cried again. But, since the “other” Allen was still alive in front of him, he forced himself to hold back the sobs and continued, “When I woke up, I was back here. I can’t explain why this happened, and I know no one would believe me… I was afraid that if I told you, you’d think I was crazy, so I’ve kept silent about it…”

Allen’s expression darkened, and he didn’t speak for a long time. The story was so unbelievable, but Su Bin’s serious demeanor made it seem like he wasn’t lying… And the specific details about Allen himself left him shocked.

“Sometimes I even question whether all of that was real, or if it was just a dream, that nothing happened and it was all just my fantasy… But no matter what, I didn’t lie to you, I swear.” Su Bin raised his right hand.

Allen looked at him for a moment. Whether he believed him or not, at least Su Bin’s attitude seemed sincere. Besides, he had countless ways to verify the story.

“Come here…” Allen beckoned with a finger.

Su Bin obediently stepped forward and humbly knelt down, and for a moment, his eyes filled with tears… How long had it been since Allen had summoned him like this?

Allen gently rubbed his head, and his fingertips traced down his ear, jaw, and neck. “So, in the other timeline, I was very infatuated with your body?” Allen asked softly.

Su Bin shamefully nodded… He would never forget the times Allen had relentlessly tormented him. In some ways, this person was like a wolf, always hungry for more.

Allen narrowed his eyes. “How can you prove that?”

“You could… try it.” Su Bin’s ears turned red with embarrassment.

Seeing the shy invitation from the young man in front of him, Allen felt a strange sense of pleasure. “But I won’t…” He couldn’t resist teasing him, “I’ve never been with a man before.” (Not with a woman either…)

“I—I can take the initiative…” Su Bin’s face turned beet red.

Allen looked down at Su Bin like a king, a smug expression on his face. “Fine. This weekend, after you’ve cleaned yourself up, come to my room.” He leaned down, his voice a playful whisper in Su Bin’s ear, “I’ll wait for you to take the initiative.”

Su Bin: “…” oo

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