Chapter 182

Su Bin had anticipated Allen’s reaction after hearing the story. He had considered that Allen might not believe him, or that he might reluctantly accept it but be very angry and upset. After all, in another timeline, Allen had given so much for him, only for it to end in such a tragic way. But what Su Bin didn’t expect was that after hearing the story, Allen would directly invite him to “bed”!

To have a love that was willing to follow him to death be reduced to “infatuation with your body” might be humiliating to an average person. And Allen’s words, “wait for you to take the initiative,” sounded like a deliberate challenge. But no matter what, in Su Bin’s eyes, Allen didn’t kick him out or dislike him. That in itself was already good enough. Now, Allen had even given him a chance to get closer to him physically—Su Bin was overwhelmed with joy.

Back in his own room, Su Bin felt like a naive young man experiencing his first crush. He lay in bed, unable to sleep, thinking about Allen’s tone and the things that would happen this weekend. Before long, he had a reaction he shouldn’t have had.

After traveling to this world, it was torturous to watch the person he loved most be right beside him, yet he couldn’t touch or hold him. He had endured it with difficulty. There had been several times before when he had secretly indulged in such things under the covers, but every time, thinking of the situation, his eyes would sting with grievance. Only today, during self-pleasure, there was a sweet sense of desire being fulfilled, and he felt a strange kind of happiness…

However, Su Bin didn’t stay happy for long. He soon realized an issue—Allen had said he would wait for him to take the initiative, but such things couldn’t happen with just one person acting.

In the previous life, when Allen liked him, even though Su Bin had taken the initiative at times, Allen had always taken control after that, and Su Bin didn’t need to worry about what to do next.

But now, Allen no longer liked him. They didn’t have any emotional foundation. When Su Bin had gotten close to him during the dance, Allen hadn’t shown any signs of interest, and when they shared a bed that night, Allen didn’t even touch him…

Given this situation, did he still have the confidence to successfully tempt Allen?

Thinking back on how he had boldly invited Allen to “try it,” Su Bin was filled with shame. What if Allen didn’t feel anything at all? How would he handle it?

After a troubled night of sleep, the next day, Su Bin opened his computer and went to the gay website where he had met “Kong Kong Xiao Yao.”

Mu Shan: “Hey, do you remember me?”

Kong Kong Xiao Yao: “Of course! Handsome guy, how did the masquerade ball go?”

Mu Shan: “I got drunk and confessed to him, and he took me home afterward…”

Kong Kong Xiao Yao: “Congrats! That’s great~~~~~”

Mu Shan: “But we only slept in the same bed, and nothing happened…”

Kong Kong Xiao Yao: “…What?!”

Mu Shan: “But last night, he invited me to do something with him this weekend.”

Kong Kong Xiao Yao: “…Wait, plot twist! Not drunken sex or taking advantage of someone—true male god behavior, no explanation needed! ㄟㄏ”

Mu Shan: “But he said he’s never been with a guy before and told me to take the initiative…”

Kong Kong Xiao Yao: “…” That’s a lot of info to process!

Su Bin knew it wouldn’t be easy to explain everything in a couple of sentences, but he didn’t feel the need to go into detail with an online friend. He just wanted to ask: “I feel like you have a lot of experience. Do you have any tips to help make him enjoy being with me?”

Cough… A lot of experience? Kong Kong Xiao Yao chose to remain silent.

Kong Kong Xiao Yao: “Let me confirm, you’re the bottom, right?”

Su Bin blushed and typed an “Mm.”

Kong Kong Xiao Yao: “Then it should be easy! Just make him enjoy it!”

This reminded Su Bin of the advice Jin Fei had once given to Sun Yujie in the previous life…

“I’m worried he might not respond,” Su Bin replied.

Kong Kong Xiao Yao facepalmed in frustration. The guy had already invited him; clearly, Allen was interested. Why was Su Bin so insecure? This made him think of… himself.

“Don’t you have any experience in this?” Kong Kong Xiao Yao asked curiously.

Well, how should he put this? If “experience” was judged by physical activity, then yes, at this moment, he technically still was…

“From a certain perspective, yes,” Su Bin replied.

Kong Kong Xiao Yao’s mouth twitched. Could it be that this guy, like him, was someone with a lot of theoretical knowledge (maybe not even that much), but zero practical experience… a hardcore introvert?

Suddenly, Kong Kong Xiao Yao felt a sense of camaraderie toward Su Bin and immediately sent him all the theoretical knowledge he could muster.
“The information is all here. If you can do all this, I guarantee the male god won’t be able to resist you. Good luck!”

Su Bin thanked him and flipped through the materials sent by his friend, feeling his face turn red with embarrassment… But as long as it meant he could win Allen’s heart, Su Bin was willing to face any challenge!

Over the past few days, with the combination of Kong Kong Xiao Yao’s resources and his own experience, Su Bin had been secretly conducting “research” in his room every night. One day, after staying up late and heading to the bathroom for a shower, he accidentally ran into Allen, who was up late and heading to the bathroom himself.

“Still up this late?” Allen blocked the bathroom door and stared at him up and down for a while, not knowing what was making him blush. After a long pause, Allen finally smirked and said, “Take it easy, save some energy for the weekend.”

“…” Su Bin’s face turned so red he felt like it could bleed!

During these days, Allen wasn’t idle either. Cautious as he was, he had taken time to calmly go over the story Su Bin had told him. He even hired professionals to thoroughly investigate Su Bin’s background, and this time, they traced his family’s lineage in their home country.

He never expected that the boy he had met as a child was actually Su Bin…

It was when his mother had just left him, and during that time, Allen was so devastated that he almost gave up on life. It was then that this lively, energetic little boy had appeared in his line of sight, with large round eyes full of curiosity about the world, yet when he saw Allen, he had fled in a panic.

…It was a sight that made him smile.

Yes, living meant seeing different landscapes and encountering better things.

So, being alive was better than being dead.

If that brief encounter had been the origin of their meeting, then even if this story was fabricated by Su Bin, Allen would accept it.

Thinking of how adorable Su Bin had looked in the bathroom just now, Allen believed that even the version of himself from another timeline would be attracted to this simple and somewhat silly guy.

Saturday morning, after Su Bin got up, he ran into Allen in the kitchen. Knowing that today was the day to fulfill their promise, he felt incredibly nervous.

However, Allen acted as calm as usual. He brewed coffee, leisurely ate breakfast, and didn’t say anything special to Su Bin before getting ready to leave.

“Allen!” Su Bin couldn’t help but call out to him. “Um, you’ll be home today, right?”

Allen paused and turned his head: “Mm?”

Su Bin awkwardly wondered if Allen had forgotten their arrangement.

“What’s up?” Allen calmly stared at him, though a trace of mischievousness flashed in his eyes. He was waiting for Su Bin to speak up—if he was supposed to take the initiative, then Allen wanted him to show it from start to finish.

Su Bin blushed and stammered, “The thing we talked about, the weekend one…”

“Oh…” Allen nodded and asked, “Are you ready?”

Su Bin: “Mm…”

Allen’s expression became serious. “Follow me.”

Huh? Su Bin’s eyes widened. It was still daytime! He had only wanted to confirm the timing, like after dinner or before bed… why now?

Su Bin quickly said, “Can it be tonight?”

Allen tilted his head. “I have something to do tonight.”

Su Bin: “…Huh? Then tomorrow?”

Allen sipped his coffee, frowned, and said, “I have to go out tomorrow too.”

Su Bin saw that Allen was starting to show impatience and was feeling flustered. He was used to being more open, but he wasn’t accustomed to doing things like that during the day…

“Alright, weren’t you ready?” Allen tugged at his collar and turned to go upstairs. “I’ll be in my room waiting for you.”

Su Bin: “…”

Su Bin broke into a cold sweat, went upstairs to change into his sleepwear, and knocked on Allen’s door…

It was something he had been eager to do, yet now, at the critical moment, he felt like a sheep walking into a lion’s den—he was conflicted.

However, Allen was still his usual self, wearing loose loungewear, looking entirely at ease.

Su Bin clenched his fist and mentally cheered himself on—What are you shy for, idiot? You’ve done this before! Go for it!

After that, true to his word, Allen really did spend the whole day with Su Bin.

After going back and forth between heaven and hell countless times, Su Bin didn’t even have the energy to cry, let alone speak. He just collapsed onto the bed, completely exhausted.

In contrast to Su Bin’s limp body, Allen, surprisingly, was feeling energized. He took a shower, went downstairs, and found something to eat.

In the kitchen, he ran into Yang Chengzhe, who eyed him sideways for a long while before asking, “Is it over?”

Allen: “…”
Although the villa had good soundproofing, on this quiet weekend, Yang Chengzhe, who was focused on writing his thesis in his room, couldn’t ignore the strange sounds coming from the room next door. The muffled, suppressed sobs and the restrained yet joyful moans had been going on for six hours, from 10 AM until now… Poor him, an inexperienced virgin, hearing this was making him restless and completely unproductive!

It was rare to see Allen, usually so composed, looking this frustrated and angry. Yang Chengzhe couldn’t resist teasing him, “Well, I’m not opposed to you two doing this in your room, but… maybe tone it down a little next time?”

Allen: “…” Dr. Yang, I’m going to cut ties with you!

“What tone it down?” Just then, Jin Fei, who had just woken up with sleepy eyes, came out of his room. As the social king who often stayed up late, he was used to sleeping in on weekends.

Seeing that Allen was also wearing a bathrobe, Jin Fei was curious, “You just woke up too?” Then he looked towards the stairs and asked, “Where’s Su Bin? It’s Saturday, how come I haven’t seen him all day?” The villa’s thick floors made it hard for Jin Fei, who lived on the first floor, to hear any noise from upstairs. He was used to Su Bin being in the kitchen on weekends, preparing food for everyone, and the aroma of food usually woke him up. This time, however, there was no smell, and it felt strange.

Allen, suppressing his earlier discomfort, calmly answered Jin Fei, “He’s tired, he’s asleep.”

Jin Fei: “???”

Allen didn’t say anything more, took the cup of hot milk, and went upstairs. Yang Chengzhe shrugged, not bothering to explain.

Jin Fei was left completely confused… What’s going on?

After wandering around and washing up, it wasn’t until cold water splashed on his face that Jin Fei suddenly realized what was going on. He yelled, “Holy shit!” … He seemed to have figured it out!

Meanwhile, Allen returned to his room and woke up the half-asleep Su Bin, handing him the milk, saying, “Drink this.”

Su Bin, embarrassed, blushed as he stared at the milk, his mind racing with thoughts…

“…Still want to continue?” Allen, seeing right through Su Bin’s thoughts, flicked his forehead.

Su Bin frantically shook his head. After what had just happened, he felt like he’d be ruined if it went on. Even thinking back to it now made him feel electric with embarrassment.

Allen sat on the edge of the bed, watching Su Bin drink the milk. He then asked, “Are you hungry?”

After a day of “physical activity” and barely eating anything, drinking only a cup of milk wasn’t enough to replenish his energy. However, Allen had said he had something to do later, and Su Bin wasn’t sure when he’d be asked to leave. So instead of thinking about food, he just wanted to take this opportunity to stay close to Allen.

With a hoarse voice, he asked, “Can you lie with me for a while longer?”

Allen: “…”

After lying down fully clothed, Su Bin snuggled up to Allen, resting his head on Allen’s chest, closing his eyes.

Allen’s embrace was so warm, and Su Bin, who hadn’t felt this sense of security in a long time, quickly fell asleep from exhaustion.

Allen, thoughtfully watching him, listened to the faint sounds of Su Bin’s steady breathing. He could tell that Su Bin was really tired.

Gently ruffling his hair, Su Bin, still asleep, unconsciously nuzzled into Allen’s hand as if seeking comfort, his lips curved in a subtle frown, like he had been wronged.

Allen felt both love and tenderness in his heart, unable to resist pulling Su Bin closer.

Over the years, countless people had claimed to love him, and even those who were seriously ill would pursue him.

But because of the ever-present threat of death, he never gave anyone a chance. To him, simply surviving was enough, and he didn’t want to waste time on anything that could be dispensable—like romance.

In time, it became a habit. Even as his health improved slightly, these thoughts never resurfaced.

For more than twenty years, he lived like a monk, in a dull, celibate life, but then this person appeared, breaking all the rules he had set for himself.

He admitted it: he was moved… A tide of emotions, uncontrollable and overwhelming.

But at the same time, he felt awkward, thinking that he wasn’t the person Su Bin wanted. He didn’t share their memories from another timeline, and he hadn’t loved Su Bin, nor had he ever invested in their relationship.

Su Bin said he loved him, so persistent and affectionate, even naively declaring they’d live and die together, never parting… but that love was for another version of him.

Yet, when he heard those words, he took them seriously. Once a bond was formed, he couldn’t bear to break it, to let go. He wanted to keep this person close, no matter the past, present, or future, making him belong to only himself… He couldn’t even tolerate the existence of the other version of himself, even though “he” was already gone.

With a soft sigh, Allen’s mind was in turmoil.

Su Bin was awakened by a gentle kiss. When he opened his eyes, he saw Allen’s face so close. Allen was still holding him, not leaving.

For a moment, Su Bin thought he was dreaming. It took him a while to react, calling out Allen’s name, tears almost welling up from the happiness he felt.

“Mm,” Allen responded softly, asking in a gentle voice, “Can you get up?”
Su Bin paused for a moment, then realized that it had already gotten dark outside. “Sorry, I slept too long… Are you busy with your things?” He struggled to sit up, still feeling a deep ache in his waist, grimacing as he tried to suppress a quiet gasp.

Allen placed a large soft cushion at the head of the bed, pulling Su Bin back gently. “Lean against it, don’t move. I’ve ordered dinner. Are you hungry?”

Su Bin: “…”

Allen kissed his forehead gently. “Mm?”

Su Bin hesitated, then admitted, “I… I’m hungry…”

Ten minutes later, Allen personally brought a plate of dinner and set it on the bedside table in front of Su Bin.

“Uh…” Looking at the exquisite and familiar dishes, Su Bin couldn’t help but ask, “Did you order this from the royal kitchen?”

Allen was momentarily stunned. “How did you know?”

Su Bin laughed softly: “…”

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