Chapter 69
While Su Bin was taking a shower, he thought a lot…
In fact, from the moment he saw Allen at the club, Su Bin had been feeling guilty. He knew the fault was his own. At the very least, he shouldn’t have violated Allen’s leniency with his time once again.
Throughout the journey back home, he had lowered his posture to apologize and make amends. However, even after they arrived home, Allen remained as cold as a stone, seemingly unaffected by his efforts.
During this process, Su Bin’s heart became increasingly tense. He was almost drowning in the awkward atmosphere and anxiety…
When Allen had told him to take a shower, Su Bin initially thought that Allen had given up on pressing the matter. However, he realized that he shouldn’t let his guard down because Allen had followed up with another sentence that made it clear – the issue from tonight wasn’t over.
Su Bin felt uneasy, but at the same time, he felt a sense of relief. To put it another way, he actually looked forward to Allen giving him some kind of punishment. Regardless of whether Allen would be pleased or not, getting a straightforward response would be better than being left in uncertainty.
Su Bin made an effort to wash himself thoroughly, even using the herbal-scented shower gel he had bought earlier, which was the same one Allen used. Because Su Bin had sensed that a part of Allen’s displeasure was related to his body odor.
Having known each other for over three months, living next door to each other, sharing the same bathroom, even though they didn’t communicate much, Su Bin had gained some insight into Allen’s personality. Whenever he had an unusual smell on him, Allen would show a very impatient expression.
For example, in the beginning, the deliberate garlic smell he had created, as well as the combination of the sweat and the lavender-scented perfume creating a weird pickled taste (=_=)… And later, whether it was picking up trash on the field or cooking, whenever there was a strange smell on him, Allen would remind him to take a shower.
If cleaning himself up could reduce Allen’s displeasure a bit, Su Bin was more than willing to do so. This was also a form of consideration for someone with such severe cleanliness tendencies.
After his shower, Su Bin dried himself off, put on clean pajamas… and then his nerves kicked in again… orz…
Actually, Su Bin was quite afraid of facing a displeased Allen, especially when he himself was in the wrong. The pressure was beyond imagination…
Some might say, “You haven’t really done anything wrong; at most, you came home late. Is it necessary to be so nervous?” Others might think, “You and Allen are neither relatives nor close friends. If you’re afraid of him, just keep your distance.” And so on. Su Bin could only explain it in four words: “You wouldn’t understand!”
Yes, even Su Bin himself hadn’t thought about the deeper reasons behind this, though Allen’s intimidating aura was part of it. But fundamentally, it was Su Bin’s own issues.
The reasons might also trace back to Su Bin’s childhood where he never received any discipline…
When he was a child, playing with friends, almost everyone had a designated curfew set by their parents, except Su Bin. Whenever they were having fun and someone reluctantly suggested, “I have to go home, or I’ll get scolded!”
“I’m the same, my mom told me I have to be home before five, or I won’t be allowed to go out again…”
While saying these things, they would look at Su Bin with envy and say, “Su Bin, you’re so lucky. Your parents don’t even care about you!” … Is he really that fortunate?
Perhaps this might have been appealing once or twice, and Su Bin might have felt a sense of pride in his “freedom,” but over time, it stopped feeling so great.
Once, probably during a summer vacation after graduating from elementary school, Su Bin went to play at the house of a close friend. The friend’s mother liked him a lot and enthusiastically invited him for dinner and to spend the night. Su Bin agreed without hesitation… The friend’s mother then suggested calling his parents, and Su Bin waved his hand, saying there was no need. The friend’s mother was surprised, “Won’t they worry if you don’t tell them?” Su Bin still remembered the sour taste in his heart when he heard her say that.
He had many such experiences. The same feeling arose when he was spending time with his best buddy, Huang Zhengming. Although they were nearly inseparable every weekend and holiday after they became friends, and Su Bin especially hoped that Huang Zhengming would stay with him all the time when they were having fun, Huang Zhengming would always leave at five o’clock sharp in the evening, even if he was reluctant.
“I’d like to stay and play too, but I can’t. If I don’t go home at night, my dad will break my legs,” Huang Zhengming had said at the time.
Breaking legs and such might sound fierce, but Su Bin knew that his dad would never really do something like that. The more fierce the words, the stronger the underlying affection… Out of concern, out of care, out of love.
What others were desperately trying to avoid was something Su Bin could never attain.
Su Bin envied them. In the process of growing up, he had always wished for some parental discipline, for some form of restraint, just like other kids. But it wasn’t until he reached adulthood, went to college, gradually matured and became more independent, that he realized his parents hadn’t really disciplined him much.
Su Bin had almost forgotten about those desires he used to have, until he met Allen…
Allen taking care of him was something Su Bin had never anticipated. After all, Allen’s first impression gave off an air of superiority and uniqueness. Even from the way Allen had his own separate space in the fridge, it was evident that he avoided social interactions. Not due to being reclusive, but out of pride.
Therefore, when someone like Allen began to show “concern” for others, no matter how it was expressed, it left people surprised. Like when Su Bin worked late and came home, if the first day Allen’s sudden appearance could be understood as an accidental disturbance, Allen waiting for him in the living room on the second day until he returned home carried a clear message – Allen cared about him.
Although Allen’s initially tough and stubborn attitude had been hard for Su Bin to accept, when Allen suddenly hugged him and said he was “worried”, Su Bin’s heart melted…
From that moment, Su Bin knew that Allen cared about him. If Allen treated him as just a regular roommate, there was no need for such actions. After all, Su Bin would only be staying here for a year, and after that, the two might not have any connections left.
…
So, Su Bin wouldn’t run away. He wanted to cherish this sense of “caring”.
Compared to an angry Allen, Su Bin was more afraid of seeing an indifferent Allen.
After pondering all this, Su Bin’s feelings were still uneasy. He didn’t know what he would face next. Perhaps it would be like the last time he worked illegally until midnight, and Allen had threatened him sternly and then comforted him by hugging him. Or maybe it would be something like being intimidated by a vampire-costumed Allen at a social party when he felt lost and then being healed by a deep kiss…
Even though certain borderline actions had led Su Bin to imagine some weird scenarios, at least he knew that Allen had never humiliated him and had never truly harmed him.
You can’t escape what’s bound to happen. Su Bin took a deep breath, walked out of the bathroom…
He mentally reviewed the words he wanted to say once more – in short, it was all his fault. He promised that he would never engage in illegal work again and that he wouldn’t come home past ten o’clock… Alright!
He lightly knocked on Allen’s door, and he heard a low response from inside, “Come in.”
Su Bin’s heart couldn’t help but start racing again…
The door wasn’t locked, and after entering, Su Bin instinctively closed the door behind him – he didn’t want Cheng Ge to hear what was going to happen next! QAQ
Su Bin looked up at Allen. As soon as he saw Allen’s gloomy expression, he completely forgot the words he had planned to say!
Allen had already taken off his black coat. He was wearing a gray turtleneck sweater, and his pants were the same black velvet pants he had worn before.
Su Bin’s mind went blank, and he stood there feeling awkward and uncertain…
Allen was sitting on the only leather armchair in the room. He spoke softly, “Come here.”
“…” What should I do after going over? Should I just stand here the whole time?
Su Bin slowly approached Allen, his heart thumping uncontrollably…
“…Michael, do you know what you did wrong?” Allen asked him while sitting.
Su Bin quickly nodded. This question reminded him of the script he had prepared for himself, and he quickly admitted his mistake, with a sincere attitude, promising not to repeat it.
Allen lightly tapped his own leg with his fingers and raised an eyebrow, “Before you took on this job, I remember you assured me about coming home on time.”
Su Bin was left speechless. What to do now? The situation seemed even more complicated than he had thought…
Allen looked at Su Bin with a seemingly amused but not amused expression, “Do you think a second assurance will be effective for me?”
Su Bin swore he didn’t see any hint of amusement in Allen’s face…
“How do I need to behave for you to forgive me?” Su Bin asked, and Allen stood up.
This action made Su Bin even more nervous. He instinctively wanted to step back, but unexpectedly, Allen reached out and grabbed his arm, pulling him over… Did Allen want to hug him?
… No, something’s off!
The next second, Su Bin felt his wrists being held together and pressed against his lower back. Allen controlled him with one hand, while the other hand gently stroked his back, pressing Su Bin tightly against his own body.
Even the back of his head was firmly held by a palm and pushed down until his face was pressed against Allen’s shoulder…
Then that hand moved away…
Without any warning, Su Bin felt a sharp hit on a certain area through his sleep pants… Su Bin’s whole body trembled, and he was utterly dumbfounded…
Half a second later, the place that had been hit started to throb with a burning pain… Yet before Su Bin could react, the same place was struck again…
“Ugh…” This hit hurt much more than the previous one, and Su Bin couldn’t help but let out a muffled groan…
Spanking?!?!?! OwO