Chapter 188
Su Bin ran upstairs, and sure enough, he saw Allen sitting in the bedroom, with his back to him. Even though he heard the sound, Allen didn’t turn around—just like the time in the previous life when he got jealous because of Li Meihan’s visit, he was pouting, but also looking lonely and pitiful.
Su Bin was overwhelmed with emotions, feeling guilty and remorseful. He softly called, “Allen,” and stepped forward, reaching out to wrap his arms around him from behind.
It was as if he was afraid Allen would disappear at any moment, so he tightly held onto him, his hands pressed against Allen’s chest. All the words he had wanted to say had escaped him; in that moment, he only wanted to hold Allen.
But Allen didn’t let the moment of warmth last. His sharp eyes noticed the blood on Su Bin’s hand, and he grabbed his wrist, pulling it close to his face, frowning as he asked, “What happened to your hand?”
“I hurt it by accident…” Su Bin said softly, trying to please Allen with a kiss on his cheek. “It’s fine, just a small injury, it doesn’t hurt anymore.” What mattered was the realization he had come to, what was a little pain in comparison to that?
Allen, visibly displeased, pulled Su Bin away, and went to the cupboard to grab some disinfectant and gauze. He removed the band-aid that barely covered the wound and began disinfecting and re-bandaging it properly.
Su Bin couldn’t take his eyes off Allen, tears welling up in his eyes from the emotion.
Although Allen didn’t say anything and still looked a little upset, the expression he had while treating Su Bin’s injury was so serious, as if he were handling the most precious thing in the world.
“Allen…” Su Bin felt like his heart was melting.
“Hm~” Allen didn’t even look up.
Su Bin trembled, “…I love you.” He had said it so many times, he wasn’t sure if the words had become meaningless.
But this time, Allen heard him. He frowned and asked, “Do you love me, or the old me?”—he finally asked the question that had been weighing on his heart.
Su Bin froze for a moment, momentarily confused. But then he quickly realized what Allen was getting at. He quickly explained, “Does it matter? You are you. Apart from not having memories, everything about you is the same as before. I love your soul!”
Allen: “…”
In a flurry, Su Bin fumbled around in his pocket, pulling out a ring box, his newly bandaged fingers making it a bit awkward to open. He held it out in front of Allen and said, “This is for you… You once told me that a ring is a token that binds a life together, and it shouldn’t be given lightly, so I’m very serious about this… Even though I never had the confidence to make you love me again, I will try…”
Allen: “…”
Su Bin continued, “I don’t have much money, and I don’t have a high education. The only thing I was good at in my past life, I don’t want to use as a career this time because it was one of the reasons that caused your death… Now I just want to be with you, but before you say you love me, I don’t want to live off you, so I worked part-time… But even if I earn money, I will give it to you… Because I’m yours…”
Looking at Allen’s indifferent expression and his lack of reaction, Su Bin began to sweat nervously. What if Allen rejected him? What would he do then?
But just as he was about to collapse from anxiety, Allen grabbed his arm. Before Su Bin knew what was happening, he was pulled forward, his waist held tightly, and a warm breath washed over him.
Su Bin: “The… the ring…” The ring had fallen…
Allen ignored the ring, his attention solely focused on Su Bin’s lips, which had been whispering sweet words. He couldn’t bear to hear more; his heart was racing. This fool!
He tightened his grip around Su Bin’s arm, not just his body, but even his head wanted to embrace him, wishing he could pull him into his body completely, to merge with him.
…
When the kiss ended, both of them were out of breath. Su Bin, with flushed cheeks, curled up in Allen’s embrace, still a little uneasy. “Did you accept me?”
Allen, his lips still close to Su Bin’s, thought to himself, you fool, haven’t you realized? I can’t live without you.
Allen let out a soft grunt and gently bit Su Bin’s lip, then asked, “Where’s the ring?”
Su Bin: “…”
(The ring, now on the floor, whispered: “I’m here…”)
Su Bin scrambled to pick up the ring and shakily placed it on Allen’s finger. It fit perfectly.
The smooth platinum band wrapped around his long fingers, the circle representing how this person was now bound to him—proof that Allen belonged to him.
Su Bin’s heart tingled as he kissed Allen’s hand, now adorned with the ring. He didn’t know whether to laugh or cry, “Wuwu…”
Allen: “…”
Allen cupped Su Bin’s face, gently pressed the back of his head, and licked the tear-streaked corner of his eye, tasting the saltiness. “Are you that happy?”
Allen chuckled softly.
Su Bin, so touched he couldn’t speak, simply nuzzled against him, like a little puppy seeking a kiss.
“Say it again, you’re mine.” Allen’s voice was soft but carried an undeniable authority.
“I’m yours.” Su Bin felt both sweetness and a slight ache in his heart.
They embraced for a while longer, and Allen, gently stroking Su Bin’s neck, squinted and thought, maybe I should get him an “identity symbol” ring of his own?
At dinner, Allen quietly raised his hand to admire the ring on his finger. Su Bin, who was bringing out hot soup, saw this and happily asked, “Do you like it?”
Allen cleared his throat and said, “I prefer a simple round band…” He lowered his hand and gave a look that seemed to say, “Well, since you bought it, I’ll reluctantly wear it.”
Su Bin pouted, “It’s very expensive. I spent so much money, and I’m probably not going to have enough for living expenses next semester…”
Allen glanced at him and replied, “Don’t worry, I’ll take care of you.”
Su Bin: “…”
On Christmas, having successfully confessed his love, Su Bin was naturally brought back to Roland Manor by Allen, where they spent a week of sweet affection.
When school resumed and they returned to M City, Su Bin excitedly shared the “good news” with Yang Chengzhe and Jin Fei that he was now with Allen. In the past, he would have been too embarrassed to mention it to anyone, but now, Su Bin wanted to shout it from the rooftops—Allen was his.
In the days that followed, he also sent a few messages to Mr. Shen, asking if he was interested in finding a new personal assistant.
For some reason, Allen in this life didn’t restrict his socializing as strictly as before. Su Bin thought maybe it was because his love had given Allen enough peace of mind, so now he wasn’t worried about any external temptations.
Su Bin thought of Danni, the assistant he had worked with in his past life. She was probably still at home, maybe even a good fit for Mr. Shen. But before informing Mr. Shen, Su Bin asked Yang Chengzhe to check with Danni about her intentions.
A few days later, Yang Chengzhe responded that his colleague had declined.
Su Bin was puzzled: “Huh? Why? Mr. Shen offers such a high salary!”
Yang Chengzhe shrugged: “That’s the reason. I told him your employer is successful, handsome, young, and single. Any man would be concerned—what if his wife gets stolen away?”
Su Bin: “…………” So Allen’s jealousy was justified after all!
Yang Chengzhe stroked his chin and added, “So, this kind of job is really more suited for someone like an older woman.”
Su Bin: “……” Suddenly, he felt like lighting a candle for Mr. Shen.
Valentine’s Day came, and Allen had already made plans with Su Bin for the evening, saying he would take him out.
Su Bin, who usually spent every day with Allen, didn’t understand why Allen insisted on specifically reminding him. After class that evening, he rushed home, only to find Allen had changed into a different outfit.
“You look so strange today…” The tight black leather pants made Allen’s legs look long and slender, and his coat had various sharp, shiny silver decorations on the collar and cuffs. Allen looked…
“What’s strange?” Allen asked, pulling out a pair of matching pointed boots. Su Bin felt weak at the knees.
Unable to avoid Allen’s powerful aura, Su Bin simply threw himself at him, blushing, “If you grew two horns on your head, you’d look like a devil.”
Allen froze for a moment, then playfully bit his earlobe. “I don’t need horns… just a belt.”
Su Bin: “……” Oh my god…
That night, Allen took Su Bin to a peculiar club, where the various performances completely shifted Su Bin’s worldview. He had only ever stayed in his own world with Allen before, and this was his first time facing the reality of this scene.
Sensing Su Bin’s nervousness, Allen held his hand the entire time and often kept him half in his embrace. “Don’t be afraid, it’s just for fun. We’re different from them.”
After watching the performance, they returned home late at night. After some lingering affection, Su Bin felt something cool and soft wrap around his neck. What was that…
Allen gently traced his collarbone and murmured in the dark, “Remember, you’re mine.”
Su Bin’s eyes watered. This time, he didn’t mention the similar thing that Allen had given him in the past life. Instead, he simply replied, “Mm, I love you.”
Allen lowered his head and kissed him gently, “I love you too.”
【Extra 1: “If I Could Love You Again” ends】
