Chapter 86
“Very well,” Allen licked his lips and smiled, “Let’s fill our stomachs first, and then we can continue discussing this topic.”
Su Bin pushed the beef around his plate, feeling a bit unappetizing. He was very anxious because he didn’t know how Allen would have him do it… Would it be difficult to surrender his thoughts?
Raising an eyebrow, Allen said pleasantly, “I should remind you to eat more, because what we’re going to do next will be quite physically demanding.”
Su Bin: “…” Physically demanding? Why? o////o
After dinner, Allen picked up a candlestick and told Su Bin, “Come with me,” then headed to the bedroom.
Nervously, Su Bin followed. When they had gone out during the day, the room had already been tidied up, the sheets were refreshed, and everything was neatly arranged.
In the bedroom, there was a round glass coffee table by the window, with only a sofa accompanying it. Allen placed the candle in the center of the table. Without turning on the lights, the faint candlelight illuminated his exquisite features.
Su Bin was unsure where to sit when he suddenly heard Allen softly say a word to him, “Kneel.”
Su Bin was shocked, “Kneel?”
Allen looked at him, his eyes devoid of emotion, “I don’t want to say it a second time.”
“…” Turmoil churned within Su Bin. He was already twenty years old, living in a democratic era, with a sound personality and self-esteem. Suddenly being ordered to kneel before another person was something he couldn’t immediately accept.
Allen’s gaze turned from piercing to disappointment, “Su Bin, this isn’t a game. If you can’t do this…”
Just as he was about to continue, Allen saw Su Bin slowly sinking down to his knees.
A proposal position? Heh…
Observing Su Bin’s expression of reluctance, Allen didn’t soften. He reminded, “Both knees.”
Upon hearing this, Su Bin was nearly at his wit’s end. He felt like saying, “I quit” and walking away!
But he thought about the disappointment that Allen had just shown, and he trembled all over…
…I’ve already knelt with one leg. What’s the difference if I add the other one? It shouldn’t matter much, right?
Gritting his teeth, Su Bin did as Allen instructed, kneeling in the manner of Orz…
The next moment, a large hand covered his head, and a voice from above said, “Very well…”
The satisfied tone and gentle touch instantly relieved Su Bin. He even felt that kneeling like this didn’t seem so humiliating after all… Unfortunately, Allen’s hand left him quickly.
Su Bin looked at him with some reluctance, lips moving, not knowing what to say.
Allen was also looking at him, and their gazes were intertwined for a long while. Eventually, Allen said, “It seems you’ve truly made up your mind.”
Su Bin nodded gently, for those three “forevers”…
Allen said, “We need to take an oath.”
Su Bin: “An oath?”
Allen: “For any affirmative statement I make in the future, you must not raise doubts or objections. I only want to hear your agreement.”
Su Bin: “Okay…”
Allen extended his hand, instructing Su Bin, “Give me your right hand.”
Su Bin obediently placed his right hand over Allen’s left hand, which held onto it tightly.
Allen: “Repeat this passage after me, and understand it with all your heart.”
Su Bin: “Okay.”
Allen: “From this moment on, everything of yours will belong to Allen Lance Lewis.”
Su Bin: “From now on, everything of mine will belong to… Allen Lance Lewis.”
…Everything… What exactly does that include?
Allen continued, “I need you to surrender all your freedom to me, trust me completely without reservation.”
Su Bin: “I’m willing to give up my thoughts and freedom. I will trust you without reservation…”
Allen: “Obey my commands without defiance, follow my arrangements with absolute loyalty, satisfy my needs, and strive to please me.”
Su Bin: “I will obey your commands, not defy you, follow your arrangements, be loyal to you, satisfy your needs, and… strive to please you with all my heart…”
o////o How strange, it’s like a confession…
And, in this posture, it feels like something in my body is really disappearing along with these vows…
Allen: “I hope that you’ll remember the content of these words in the days to come. Any violation will lead to consequences.”
Su Bin: “…” Consequences too? QAQ
“And I, Allen Lance Lewis,” Allen looked into Su Bin’s eyes and made a solemn vow, “From this moment on, I am your rightful owner. I swear to never abandon you, from your exterior to your soul; never betray you, from your body to your mind; never harm you, be it psychological or physical; in my lifetime, I will use this identity to protect you from all harm that may come from the outside world, to the best of my ability, to keep you healthy, to keep you happy…” — and also to give you all of my love.
Su Bin: “…”
Hearing it again, the impact and emotion were the same. Allen’s words were like a warm current, slowly flowing into his heart, filling the part of him that was lost…
The two of them were immersed in the silence that followed the oath, neither of them spoke…
Su Bin felt this sensation was quite pleasant. He even wished that time would stop at this moment.
Finally, Allen was the first to break the silence. His tone softened, and he asked, “Do you have any questions about the oath just now?”
Su Bin: “Questions? Can I ask questions?”
Allen chuckled, “You did well, and I’ll reward you. You can ask questions.”
Asking questions is a reward? Su Bin’s eyes glistened, and he eagerly said, “I have many questions!”
Allen: “…”
Su Bin: “You’re my rightful owner, so what am I?”
Allen: “You’re my subordinate, a part of me.”
Su Bin nodded, seeming to understand but not fully.
Allen said, “From now on, when it’s just the two of us, you can call me Lance… And I’ll use a special name to address you. What would you like me to call you? Tell me a name you like.”
Su Bin: “I don’t know…” He had so many nicknames, but they all seemed inappropriate.
“To be honest, I don’t want to call you Michael. I have a younger brother named Michael too. Do you remember our first conversation? I called you Mike at first… subconsciously, I didn’t want to confuse you with my brother.” Allen tapped his chin in thought and said, “I’ll call you Mu. That’s the name you use on Skype.”
Su Bin: “Wood?”
Allen’s lips curled up, “I like the letter ‘m,’ and ‘Mu’ sounds intimate when you say it.”
Su Bin: “Alright…” At least it doesn’t have any strange connotations.
Allen: “Any other questions?”
“I don’t quite understand… You mentioned surrendering thoughts, but I can still think right now,” Su Bin looked at Allen in a bewildered manner.
Allen couldn’t help but suppress a chuckle, “I’m not a soul snatcher, so of course I can’t take away your thoughts. When I asked you to surrender your thoughts, it means that from now on, I want you to trust me completely. I’ll help you eliminate those meaningless things from your mind and eventually achieve the goal of ‘thinking only of me’… ” Allen reached out and touched the top of Su Bin’s head, “Mu, at the beginning, we probably won’t be able to do it, but we can slowly adapt. There will be a day when we can.”
So that’s how it is…
Su Bin realized that he had taken Allen’s “surrender your thoughts” too seriously. According to Allen’s current explanation, they had plenty of time to try… And if things didn’t work out, he could still change his mind!
Suddenly, Su Bin felt like he had “won” somehow! (⊙v⊙)
Su Bin: “So we just need to take an oath?” Apart from feeling a bit strange during the oath, it seems like nothing has really changed!
Allen nodded, “What we just did was a spiritual contract, based on the mutual willingness of both parties. In reality, if either party were to violate it, there would be no way to enforce it.”
Su Bin felt a bit worried. Did Allen mean that the words he said might be revoked?
It seemed like Allen had guessed what he was thinking. He looked quite displeased, “Mu, repeat the second half of the sentence you just swore.”
Su Bin was startled and quickly recalled, “I will trust you without reservation…”
Allen flicked Su Bin’s forehead, “Your thoughts are too unstable. I’ll have to discipline you properly.”
Su Bin: “…” Oh no, Allen seems a bit annoyed. Maybe I shouldn’t have thought about “changing my mind”? It’s as if Allen can read my mind…
Allen: “Next, I need you to hand over all your personal belongings.”
Su Bin was taken aback, a bad feeling creeping in, “Why do you need these things?”
Allen squinted his eyes, and Su Bin immediately thought of the “surrender everything” part of the oath. He dared not ask any further, got up, gathered all his personal items, placed them on the small round table, and then obediently kneeled under Allen’s gaze. (↓ Friendly reminder, this is a novel, in real life, please don’t casually hand over these things to others.)
Allen confiscated his ID card, passport, all bank cards, and cash. “From now on, you don’t need to worry about anything related to finances. I will take care of procuring everything I believe you need… including the plane ticket back to Country B.” Allen gave a little shake to Su Bin’s passport.
Su Bin: “…” Although handing over these things made him uneasy, after hearing Allen’s explanation, Su Bin suddenly felt that it wasn’t a bad thing. He knew that Allen wouldn’t withhold money from him economically. On the contrary, maybe if he gave the money to Allen, the treatment he received would be better than before. This was evident from the down jacket Allen bought for him and the hotel they were staying in now… Thinking this way, Su Bin felt indebted to Allen again.
Su Bin rifled through his wallet, which only had his student ID left, and couldn’t help but ask, “Don’t I have any spending money?”
Allen smiled, “Not for now. Wait until you get a bit more used to this kind of relationship, then I’ll consider giving you some.”
Su Bin: “…” Oh no, this means I won’t be able to go anywhere, I can only follow Allen!
“Mu…” Allen tugged at the collar of his sweater, “Now, go take a shower.”
In the latter half of that sentence, Allen’s voice was very soft, and the pace slowed down. Su Bin felt a tingling sensation all over and quickly got up and headed to the bathroom.
During his shower, Su Bin’s mind was filled with scenes from when he and Allen had taken the oath. He had never seen such a serious expression on Allen before. When Allen had said he would protect him from harm and ensure his health and happiness… his heart couldn’t help but pound. Moreover, his feelings for Allen, in addition to liking him, seemed to contain a hint of admiration.
That’s right, when Allen had sat there and he had knelt beside him, he had felt so small, while Allen had become so powerful. Oh no, actually, Allen had always been powerful. It’s just that before, his strength was objective and had nothing to do with him. But now, his strength was completely directed toward him alone, as if… he was his own god.
Su Bin admitted that in that instant, he didn’t feel humiliated anymore by kneeling down. Instead, he felt like kneeling before a god was perfectly natural.
But Su Bin didn’t know if what Allen said was true. Even though Allen asked him to trust him unconditionally, Su Bin wanted to do that, but he couldn’t shake off the fact that they had only known each other for a little over a hundred days. In the end, he still didn’t fully understand Allen, so he had a lot of anxiety inside him.
In addition to all this, Su Bin was also nervous about what would happen next. He was an adult now, and with Allen kissing him, biting him, and provoking his reactions, he could guess that something of that nature might happen… This was a strong mental stimulation for him, or you could say it was a psychological challenge. He didn’t know if he could accept it.
