Chapter 87
Su Bin doesn’t deny that he has a curious mind too, like the feeling of happiness when Sun Yujie expressed “both pain and pleasure” earlier, or the strange impulses he felt when his buttocks were spanked… These reactions made Su Bin feel a mixture of fear and novelty, like a teenager experiencing their first orgasm, torn between guilt and shame for the behavior and yet unable to resist the temptation to try it again.
Actually, he’s quite curious whether there’s pleasure in same-sex intimacy. In anticipation of what might happen next, Su Bin even used his fingers to lightly touch that area… The result was naturally both nauseating and terrifying!
He thought, if he really couldn’t accept it, he could talk to Allen about it. There might still be time to change his mind.
After a quick shower, he came out wearing a bathrobe, feeling even more nervous.
Allen was still sitting on the sofa by the window, so serene, so handsome, his gaze like a torch, resembling a perfect statue.
His gaze wandering around, Su Bin caught sight of the “mysterious box” on the bedside table: “…”! He felt a bit hesitant!
Seeing Su Bin standing still, Allen got up, walked to him with a smile, and gently took his hand, “Are you very scared?”
Su Bin nodded uneasily, “Do we… have to do that?”
Allen smiled, hugged the stiff Su Bin, and gently pressed him into his embrace. He whispered in his ear, “This is a ritual…” With his other hand, he undid Su Bin’s bathrobe sash, slowly moving upward, exposing the young man’s delicate shoulders…
Su Bin’s whole body was trembling mentally. Allen kissed his forehead, “Don’t be afraid. I’ve said I won’t hurt you. Trust me.”
Yes, Allen said he won’t hurt me. I need to trust him… Su Bin was led by Allen to the bed and lay down on his side.
(The following section has been modified for a more suitable tone.)
Su Bin was soothed by Allen for a long time. Feeling his presence was essential, and kissing was unavoidable. It made Su Bin feel loved… There was a moment of struggling due to embarrassment, but Allen had suppressed it!
Allen murmured the oath like a spell in his ear over and over again—You are mine.
I am yours… Su Bin felt as though he was being brainwashed.
To prevent Su Bin from overthinking things, Allen gave him sleeping pills that night. Su Bin didn’t resist because he had insomnia the night before. Without Allen, he feared he would keep replaying memories of his friends’ betrayal and his family’s coldness, leading to insomnia again.
After taking the pills, Su Bin was cradled in Allen’s arms and drifted off into a deep sleep. He slept until the early hours of the next day.
Su Bin had no idea what Allen had done to him in the middle of the night. Although he was awake now, what followed felt like a beautiful dream… He felt like he was going crazy, he couldn’t control himself and was entangled with Allen until they were exhausted.
He woke up again, and it was already past noon. Su Bin’s heart thumped—after enjoying same-sex intimacy like this, he felt like there was no going back to being straight… Duoxi (Note: “Duoxi” is a slang term that implies a change in sexual orientation).
Realizing that his limbs were clinging to Allen’s body, Su Bin blushed and quickly released him.
“What’s wrong?” Allen opened Su Bin’s limbs that were trying to curl up, pressed him into a spread-eagle position, and affectionately kissed his forehead, “Feeling shy?”
Su Bin couldn’t bear to look at Allen’s face because it reminded him of what had happened… Ah, he was about to burn up!
Allen: “Is there anything uncomfortable?”
Su Bin shook his head… Although Allen’s methods were somewhat unexpected, it really felt comfortable… But even if it was comfortable, being pinned down by a member of the same sex and unable to say anything was too embarrassing to face, it was too shameful!
His phone rang with a message notification, and Su Bin awkwardly said to Allen, “It’s my text message.” Only then did Allen let go of him.
Su Bin picked up the phone and saw several unread messages, all from Jin Fei!
“Flaky Pastry, I’m setting off for Hangzhou! Just boarded the plane!”—7:30 PM yesterday, Su Bin had just left his father’s dinner table.
“Pastry, I’ve arrived in Hangzhou. Reply to me quickly, let’s have late-night snacks together!”—10:00 PM last night, Su Bin entered the spiritual contract with Allen.
“Darn, it’s so cold in Hangzhou! Are you not replying to me to freeze me to death!?”—10:30 PM last night, Su Bin was taking a shower.
“Dumb Pastry… I found a hotel on my own!”—11:00 PM last night, Su Bin was being fondled.
“I’m staying at Wanghu Hotel. I’m so tired. I’ll sleep first, and we’ll contact each other tomorrow.”—12:00 AM last night, Su Bin took sleeping pills and fell asleep.
“Damn it! Still no reply!”—9:00 AM today, Su Bin was moaning underneath Allen.
“I’m leaving!”—10:00 AM this morning, Su Bin was whimpering beneath Allen.
“Aren’t you already jumping into the lake?”—11:00 AM this morning, Su Bin was asleep.
“Dead or alive, give me a sign?”—12:00 PM noon, Su Bin woke up.
“…” At this moment.
Haha, why didn’t Jin Fei call! Wait, now that I think about it, it’s a good thing Jin Fei didn’t call…
A helpless expression appeared on Su Bin’s face as he quickly returned the call, “Fly…”
Before he could say anything, he heard a string of curses on the other end, “Damn it, I traveled all this way to spend Christmas with you, became your confidant, offered free psychological counseling, and this is how you treat me!”
Su Bin felt guilty as he clutched his phone, “I’m sorry, Jin Fei, I overslept…” He was startled by the weak and hoarse sound of his own voice.
The voice on the other end paused, “…What’s with that voice? Did you have a romantic encounter last night?”
—Oh my god! Su Bin was almost so shocked that he dropped his phone. Jin Fei’s perceptiveness was astounding, he was impressed!
“…No! I caught a bit of a cold!” Su Bin lied, while Allen hugged him and chuckled softly.
Su Bin nervously made a gesture to hush Allen, wondering why Allen was laughing when he couldn’t understand Chinese anyway.
Jin Fei: “Oh… You owe me a big meal to make up for this, little pastry.”
Su Bin was in the midst of deciding where to take Jin Fei when he suddenly froze. His money and cards were with Allen, which meant he couldn’t make decisions on his own.
Seeing Su Bin’s furrowed brow, Allen extended his hand, “Give me the phone.”
Su Bin hesitated for a moment but obediently handed the phone to Allen… “Fly, it’s Allen.”
Jin Fei: “…” What’s going on here?
Allen: “We’re staying at the Hyatt.”
Jin Fei: “……………”
Allen: “There’s a restaurant called ‘Lakeside 28’ in the Hyatt, it’s famous. Come over, let’s have a meal together.”
“Oh…” Jin Fei hung up the phone in a Spartan manner. How did Allen end up in China? And with “us”? Was he staying with “Biscuit”?
Sensing that something was up, Jin Fei quickly freshened up and headed straight to the Hyatt.
After ending the call, Allen looked at Su Bin, who seemed like he wanted to say something. He smiled and asked, “Do you have something to say?”
Su Bin stuttered, “Can we keep our relationship a secret from others?”
Allen raised an eyebrow, “Because of Jin Fei?” Did he think that hiding it from Jin Fei meant Jin Fei wouldn’t notice? That guy was much smarter than the person currently in his arms.
Su Bin nodded, “Yeah, and this is China…”
Allen nodded in agreement. He understood that Su Bin might not be ready to face public scrutiny, and he also thought it could make things more interesting this way.
Grateful, Su Bin glanced at Allen as if he was the most generous person in the world. He felt like Allen was especially magnanimous, “I’ll go freshen up…”
As he got out of bed, his legs were still weak. Thinking about the tingling sensation from being touched by Allen earlier in the morning, Su Bin couldn’t help but shiver. He glanced at the half-empty bottle of lubricant on the bedside table and the discarded “mysterious box” in the trash can, and he felt like crying without tears.
After freshening up and getting dressed, Allen held the black silk scarf from last night in his hand and smiled playfully, “Come here.”
Su Bin: “…” Not again, right? But he didn’t dare to defy him, so he walked over to Allen. Allen gently tied the black silk scarf around his neck, covering the faint marks on his neck.
Allen patted his buttocks lightly and laughed, “Alright, let’s go.”
Su Bin: “…” It’s a bit embarrassing q_q…
As they stepped outside, Allen respected Su Bin’s wishes and maintained an appropriate distance from him.
Su Bin suddenly felt a bit despondent. He didn’t know why he was being so sensitive… Perhaps after a night of caresses and a morning of intimate activities, their relationship had become so intimate. Su Bin had become accustomed to Allen’s presence.
The most important thing was that all of his personal belongings were with Allen. Allen was like a mobile wallet and identity card to him. He couldn’t afford to lose these things. Even though Allen had taken his money, Su Bin subjectively believed that those things still belonged to him. Allen was just temporarily holding onto them. Now that Jin Fei was in Hangzhou to visit, Su Bin felt that it was only right for him to pay. No matter how expensive this meal was, he was going to treat Jin Fei!
Jin Fei snorted, “Yesterday, before I set off, I was hoping you’d keep my bed warm, so I booked a king-sized bed at the hotel. Turns out I wasted my efforts. Not only did I spend the night alone in a vacant room, you even left me hanging this morning. I was as lonely as snow and as sore as iron!”
Su Bin: “What on earth is ‘as sore as iron’?”
“Do you understand rhyming or not?” Where is this guy’s focus? Jin Fei was frustrated… He ordered a few more dishes.
Su Bin weakly clutched his chest, “We won’t be able to finish it all…”
Jin Fei said, “We’ll get it packed if we can’t finish it!”
Su Bin dared not speak anymore. He cast a pitiful look at Allen, but at that moment, Allen was discussing the menu with Jin Fei in English, completely oblivious to his gaze.
Su Bin sat there in a daze, feeling a bit worried and a bit wronged. Would Allen actually pay for him? If that were the case, Su Bin felt like he’d not only lose face in front of Jin Fei…
The dishes arrived quickly. Jin Fei still had his usual ravenous eating habits, while Allen continued to eat gracefully. Su Bin had a much better appetite today, and the thought of having to foot the bill later motivated him to eat heartily.
As he was eating, Su Bin’s Skype message notification suddenly sounded on his phone. He put down his chopsticks and gave Allen a curious look, but Allen was putting his phone away in his pocket.
While wondering why Allen couldn’t say something in person, Su Bin unlocked his phone and read the message:
all.89: “Dear Mu, try not to eat too much greasy meat these days, it might cause discomfort in your digestion. P.S. I put the card in your pocket, the password is 178344.”
Reading this message, Su Bin’s face turned red…
He touched the pocket of his down jacket, not knowing when Allen had put the card inside. But he suddenly realized that this wasn’t his card, and the password in the message wasn’t his either. Could it be… Allen’s card?
To avoid raising suspicion from Jin Fei, Su Bin got up and went to the front desk to settle the bill. When he took out the card, it was indeed Allen’s golden Visa card!
The total amount displayed when he swiped the card at checkout was a four-digit number, and Su Bin was dumbfounded. When the payment was confirmed on the card machine, he was moved once again. Allen had casually told him the password to his bank card…
Just as Su Bin was about to settle the bill, Jin Fei’s nonchalant expression suddenly changed. He looked at Allen and asked, “Are you two… together?”
Allen curved his lips into a smile. Jin Fei’s keen eyes couldn’t be fooled, “Yes.” He didn’t deny it.
Jin Fei blurted out “Hua Ke” on the spot. When Su Bin had kiss marks on his neck, he already felt something was off. On the day of his breakup, when Allen took the initiative to carry him upstairs, it had felt suspicious. When had that icy and aloof gentleman ever cared about someone else’s business? There were also many other details that made Jin Fei realize this might be the case. Until today, when he saw Su Bin’s expression and gaze, he felt like he could practically slap an “Allen” label on his forehead.
“I heard he’s still a virgin… You didn’t hurt him, did you?” Jin Fei asked, a bit surprised by his own question. He wondered if he was being too meddlesome, but when he thought about Su Bin’s appearance, he couldn’t bear to ignore it. This kid was too endearing, like a neighbor’s younger brother!
However, Allen wasn’t shy about it, “He enjoyed it.”
Jin Fei was puzzled, “Isn’t this your first time? Isn’t the first time usually painful?”
Allen took a sip of wine and said, “I inserted a massager inside him for the night… He found it very comfortable. He clung to me when he woke up in the morning…”
Jin Fei: “You don’t have to tell me the details… As long as he enjoyed it…”
“He’s back,” Allen’s index finger lightly touched his lips, and he smiled playfully, “He doesn’t want others to know about us.”
Jin Fei nodded in understanding.
After Su Bin sat down, he slapped the bill onto the table in front of Jin Fei, “Forgive me now, alright?”
Jin Fei looked at Su Bin sympathetically, “If you don’t pay the bill, Brother will forgive you too…”
Su Bin glanced at him with a disbelieving expression.
With their bellies full, Su Bin suggested going for a walk by the lake. Jin Fei replied, “It’s freezing cold, why would you want to walk around a lake in the middle of winter? Do you want to turn into an icicle?”
—Why am I being so considerate? I’m really a rare and good guy!
Jin Fei mimicked a standard action of Huo Chuan, a character from a Chinese drama, and said, “Alright, let’s go find a warmer place to sit.”
It wasn’t that Jin Fei didn’t like sightseeing. He had gotten tired of it from a young age. Whenever he got bored, he’d embark on an impromptu trip, exploring all the beautiful landscapes within China. But now, meeting foreign friends in his own country, he really wanted to have conversations with them and chat. Such opportunities were rare when he was abroad.
Allen agreed. He usually had a calm and composed personality, and besides, the cold weather made his throat uncomfortable after being outside for a while. His joints ached. If it weren’t for Jin Fei, he would’ve already pulled Su Bin back to their hotel room to indulge in their affections, covering Su Bin from head to toe with his scent.
Su Bin was helpless. What’s wrong with these people? They’re in Hangzhou and yet they’re not interested in sightseeing at all!
He rarely got to experience the feeling of being a tour guide. These two just refused to give him face!
The three of them found a lakeside café to sit and chat. On either side of the mahogany table were two sofas. Allen and Su Bin naturally sat on one side, while Jin Fei sat alone across from them, realizing a bit late that he was being tormented again…
Damn it, he remembered three months ago when Su Bin, the foolish kid, had stood proudly with a kitchen knife and declared, “You’re not allowed to curse my relationship with my girlfriend.” Now, he was together with a man who seemed the least likely to be in a same-sex relationship!
…What kind of world is this!
Jin Fei propped up his legs and asked Su Bin, “Come on, tell big brother in detail about your grievances.”
Su Bin fell silent at the mention of it… Despite having Allen around these past two days, Allen had successfully shifted his attention. However, he couldn’t hide the fact that he was hurt. Thinking about it still made him feel uncomfortable and distressed.
Allen briefly explained the situation to Jin Fei, who sighed after hearing it, “From the way you recounted it, do you still care about their relationship? Otherwise, you’d just have ignored them… Oh, I forgot, you didn’t even get to the girl, what a pity!”
Su Bin: “…” (╯‵□′)╯︵┻━┻
“Haha, don’t get upset, it’s just that they lied to you. It’s not a big deal. You’ve never seen the ruthless competition in the business world. That’s real deception, real manipulation, real attempts to drive you to your death… Well, blame it on you looking so clueless. If they didn’t deceive you, who would they deceive?” Jin Fei glanced at Allen, “Isn’t that right?”
Allen: “…”
Su Bin was annoyed, “Damn it, you dead fly, are you here to comfort me or to mock me?”
Jin Fei: “In short, just tell me what you want. How you want to handle it, big brother will support you.”
Su Bin felt weaker after hearing this. After hesitating for a while, he said, “I don’t want to see them again…” I even maliciously hope they won’t find happiness, qaq!
Jin Fei said, “If you don’t want to see them, isn’t it simple? Either they leave, or you stay away from them.”
Su Bin complained, “They’ve already forced me to go to B country… I don’t know if things will be better when the exchange program ends next year and we return to the provincial university. I’m afraid I’ll break down if I see them.”
Jin Fei asked, “You still want to go back?”
Su Bin instinctively replied, “Yes…”
But he thought of his contract with Allen and didn’t know how things would develop afterward. He felt that Allen might make an unexpected decision, like asking him to transfer to another school… Just as he was thinking about this, Allen coincidentally said, “No need to go back. These days, you can go through the process of withdrawing from the school.”
“Withdraw from school?” This decision shocked Su Bin. He had studied hard for twelve years, finally made it to the provincial university, and now how could he easily give up!
“No, I can’t withdraw from school!” Su Bin said anxiously.
Allen looked at Su Bin, displeased, “Did you forget what you said to me last night?”
Su Bin trembled all over. Allen’s reminder was subtle and didn’t use any forceful words, but Su Bin felt an overwhelming pressure… That’s right, he had made a promise in that oath, to obey Allen’s commands and follow his arrangements… But this decision was so sudden, he couldn’t accept it!
If it wasn’t for Jin Fei’s sudden interruption, Su Bin would have argued with Allen by now. “What did you say to him last night?” Jin Fei asked Su Bin.
Su Bin replied, “Um… not much.”
Allen didn’t spare Su Bin any face, raising his arm and speaking coldly, “He said he would listen to me.”
Su Bin: “…”
Jin Fei “pfft” sound, almost spraying his coffee, “Why would he listen to you?”
Allen raised an eyebrow, giving Su Bin a meaningful look: Do you want me to continue?
Su Bin nervously touched Allen’s leg, pleading with his eyes: Don’t say it!
Jin Fei looked at Su Bin, then at Allen, looking puzzled—did they have a relationship beyond being bed partners? Why does it feel so odd!
Su Bin awkwardly tried to defuse the situation, “Well… Allen is my landlord, um, so during my time in B country, I’m under his management.”
Jin Fei had a “are you messing with me” expression, but he couldn’t expose Su Bin in front of Allen… because when Allen was unhappy, it felt like the whole world should be unhappy with him, a bit terrifying…
Su Bin looked at Allen and pleaded softly, “Let’s talk about this when we get back…” He could only discuss this matter privately with Allen. Su Bin knew that while Allen had said he had all the decision-making power, he was still open to discussing his thoughts with him. For example, Allen had respected his opinion when he said they should hide their relationship from others today…
Seeing Su Bin trying to appease him, Allen’s expression finally eased a bit.
—I’ll settle things with you later when we get back.
Jin Fei kindly advised, “Bingzi, don’t think too much about that dog couple’s relationship. I think it’s better for you to transfer to another school. The provincial university is good, but compared to foreign education, it’s still lacking…” Su Bin was moved by these words and thought Jin Fei was genuinely concerned about him. However, Jin Fei’s tone suddenly changed, “The key is, I think if you open a restaurant abroad, you’ll make a killing! You don’t need a big one, just a small one near M University. Like a private kitchen, those lunch places. I guarantee you’ll make a fortune… why bother with studying!”
Su Bin: “…”
Thank you for the tl. May I ask if you have translated the uncensored version of this chapter or not?
No uncensored version???
Yes. Me too. I would like the uncensored version too. 😭